(Sorry if this is a little long, and possibly TMI at times... I'm a writer so it's natural to me.)
So I wasn't sure exactly how to put my "status" on this forum... Because we aren't trying to conceive, but not necessarily waiting either? It's more of the "if it happens, it happens" phase I guess? I want to have one, he is more of the he wants to wait but if it happens, it is okay.
It started last March, I miscarried at six weeks - and had only known about the pregnancy for two days. It was a really hard time, went through a huge time period of depression and anxiety, and definitely gave me the baby fever big time once I started to recover from the loss. My fiancée, however, was most definitely not in the same boat. He wanted to wait to have kids, so he was relieved and very happy the pregnancy didn't take. Which caused a toll in our relationship.
Despite my attempts at careless seduction, nothing ever happened. I had a few pregnancy scares, but it was just my wishful thinking. My period never came late, not once. So I gave up and decided to just wait and stop causing needless heartache. Well, at the beginning of this year, around the sixth, we had unprotected sex but pulled out. And I really just didn't even think anything of it at all. While I know there's always a risk using the pull out method, he looked up the nitty-gritty of it all and had it down to a science. Well on this particular day, he didn't tell me he had just masturbated about an hour before and hadn't washed or gone to the bathroom- and didn't mention after. About three days later, I started having pretty heavy white discharge, and had it on and off until AF was due. My AF was due on the 20th (I have a 27 day cycle like clockwork- and got AF on Christmas Eve last month). Well, the 20th came and AF didn't appear. By this time, my boob hurt so much they hurt without me even touching them; usually when it' AF, they would only hurt to the touch. Day two I started wondering why it was late and just thought I could be pregnant, so I took a test. I think it was defective though, the control window had a deep blue line, and the control line in the test window was a faint gray and read negative. The conflicting dye colors made me think it was defective. So, I just kept about my business. By the 24th, I was really bloated to where my pants buttoned while sitting hurt. And I never really bloat around AF.
So, as I said before, my fiancée wanted to wait to have kids. Well this day I reluctantly shared everything and he was actually calm and said he figured. THIS is when he explained to me what happened the night of the possible conception. And then he actually seemed happy about it all, that he was certain I was pregnant and wanted to know when he could tell people. I was like woah woah woah, hold on a minute. First of all, I was completely shocked he was happy and excited. Secondly, I hadn't even tested positive yet and he basically wanted to tell everyone he knew. Of course, he didn't tell anyone. And I wanted to wait until a I was a complete week late until I tested. Well, I was a week late... but around 3am, while at work, I started having some mild cramping and went to the bathroom to notice some blood in my underwear but almost nothing when I wiped. I had read up on implantation bleeding and all before so I thought it was possible it was that. I tried to not worry and just went about working. I got pretty sick that night, pretty nauseous and stressed, thinking I had AF. But the rest of that day, I did bleed but not even enough to fill one pad. I stopped bleeding around 10pm that night and didn't start bleeding again until about 7am (I was working). Now this brings us to today and I have really barely bled at all. Maybe two or three drops an hour, a dark red to a brown-red color. It's to the point where I'm not even wearing a pad at the moment. My AF is usually extremely painful and heavy the first two days, moderate on a third, and barely nothing the last two days. And I mean really heavy and really painful. This is just completely unlike anything I've ever had. I've been driving myself near insanity with googling it. I just fear it is AF and I'm just worked up so much it's dragging it out or something. I really don't want it to be AF this time around, I do want it to be a pregnancy! How he is so excited and we are at a point where we could actually handle it, I think the timing is right. And we have bonded so much these last few days. But now I'm waiting for the bleeding to completely stop to test again...
Has anyone experienced this type of bleeding before? Any suggestions? I'm completely new to all of this and just don't know what to think. Very worried :c I don't want it to be the start of a miscarriage/chemical pregnancy. We've both kind of got our hopes of prematurely this time and the waiting is absolutely crushing my spirit. It has me spinning just like the miscarriage last year. I don't think I can handle another miscarriage... I can do nothing but sleep and Google to see if it could be anything but a sort of miscarriage or AF.
I'm not cramping anymore, and I kind of think I never really "cramped". I was running around at work and doing some lifting and such and think I could have pulled a muscle. I don't have any other symptoms, just the sore boobs, bloating, and minor bleeding. Anyone have any suggestions or thoughts? Good vibes are very welcome!
So I wasn't sure exactly how to put my "status" on this forum... Because we aren't trying to conceive, but not necessarily waiting either? It's more of the "if it happens, it happens" phase I guess? I want to have one, he is more of the he wants to wait but if it happens, it is okay.
It started last March, I miscarried at six weeks - and had only known about the pregnancy for two days. It was a really hard time, went through a huge time period of depression and anxiety, and definitely gave me the baby fever big time once I started to recover from the loss. My fiancée, however, was most definitely not in the same boat. He wanted to wait to have kids, so he was relieved and very happy the pregnancy didn't take. Which caused a toll in our relationship.
Despite my attempts at careless seduction, nothing ever happened. I had a few pregnancy scares, but it was just my wishful thinking. My period never came late, not once. So I gave up and decided to just wait and stop causing needless heartache. Well, at the beginning of this year, around the sixth, we had unprotected sex but pulled out. And I really just didn't even think anything of it at all. While I know there's always a risk using the pull out method, he looked up the nitty-gritty of it all and had it down to a science. Well on this particular day, he didn't tell me he had just masturbated about an hour before and hadn't washed or gone to the bathroom- and didn't mention after. About three days later, I started having pretty heavy white discharge, and had it on and off until AF was due. My AF was due on the 20th (I have a 27 day cycle like clockwork- and got AF on Christmas Eve last month). Well, the 20th came and AF didn't appear. By this time, my boob hurt so much they hurt without me even touching them; usually when it' AF, they would only hurt to the touch. Day two I started wondering why it was late and just thought I could be pregnant, so I took a test. I think it was defective though, the control window had a deep blue line, and the control line in the test window was a faint gray and read negative. The conflicting dye colors made me think it was defective. So, I just kept about my business. By the 24th, I was really bloated to where my pants buttoned while sitting hurt. And I never really bloat around AF.
So, as I said before, my fiancée wanted to wait to have kids. Well this day I reluctantly shared everything and he was actually calm and said he figured. THIS is when he explained to me what happened the night of the possible conception. And then he actually seemed happy about it all, that he was certain I was pregnant and wanted to know when he could tell people. I was like woah woah woah, hold on a minute. First of all, I was completely shocked he was happy and excited. Secondly, I hadn't even tested positive yet and he basically wanted to tell everyone he knew. Of course, he didn't tell anyone. And I wanted to wait until a I was a complete week late until I tested. Well, I was a week late... but around 3am, while at work, I started having some mild cramping and went to the bathroom to notice some blood in my underwear but almost nothing when I wiped. I had read up on implantation bleeding and all before so I thought it was possible it was that. I tried to not worry and just went about working. I got pretty sick that night, pretty nauseous and stressed, thinking I had AF. But the rest of that day, I did bleed but not even enough to fill one pad. I stopped bleeding around 10pm that night and didn't start bleeding again until about 7am (I was working). Now this brings us to today and I have really barely bled at all. Maybe two or three drops an hour, a dark red to a brown-red color. It's to the point where I'm not even wearing a pad at the moment. My AF is usually extremely painful and heavy the first two days, moderate on a third, and barely nothing the last two days. And I mean really heavy and really painful. This is just completely unlike anything I've ever had. I've been driving myself near insanity with googling it. I just fear it is AF and I'm just worked up so much it's dragging it out or something. I really don't want it to be AF this time around, I do want it to be a pregnancy! How he is so excited and we are at a point where we could actually handle it, I think the timing is right. And we have bonded so much these last few days. But now I'm waiting for the bleeding to completely stop to test again...
Has anyone experienced this type of bleeding before? Any suggestions? I'm completely new to all of this and just don't know what to think. Very worried :c I don't want it to be the start of a miscarriage/chemical pregnancy. We've both kind of got our hopes of prematurely this time and the waiting is absolutely crushing my spirit. It has me spinning just like the miscarriage last year. I don't think I can handle another miscarriage... I can do nothing but sleep and Google to see if it could be anything but a sort of miscarriage or AF.
I'm not cramping anymore, and I kind of think I never really "cramped". I was running around at work and doing some lifting and such and think I could have pulled a muscle. I don't have any other symptoms, just the sore boobs, bloating, and minor bleeding. Anyone have any suggestions or thoughts? Good vibes are very welcome!
