Today was better

[BabyG2016]

I am feeling a little better. I haven't cried as much. I still feel sad and want my baby, but today I'm not falling apart.

Yesterday, knowing that so many women and parents were memorializing their lost ones helped. I lit a candle that I bought especially for times to honor my baby. I listened to my playlist of songs that make me cry and seem to help me heal, as well. I cried and I yelled some.

One day...one step...one moment all at a time.

 

[Twag]

 

[Myshelsong]

Big hugs Hun.
My days lately have been up and down as well, one day I am clutching his memory box crying why did this happen, and the next I am running errands like a normal functioning human being.
I am hoping this wave of dispair and anxiety will go away soon, I feel so depressed I am hoping if we get some answers regarding what happened I will be able to move forward.

 

[HelenJane]

I feel exactly the same ladies big hugs to you all

 

[BabyG2016]

I don't think I'll ever have an exact reason as to why I lost Teddy.

The most logical explanation so far has been that it was because I was still on my birth control (we weren't planning or trying, yet, to have a baby). My DR thinks that the pill failed enough for conception and for my baby to implant, and then the hormones from the pill were enough to cause my miscarriage.

I hate this. I hate this for myself and EVERY parent who has gone through it.