Tonight, I am a complete disaster. Ugh!

[thecurlymama]

Figured out OH and I both have yeast infections (most likely from me and my high candida due to pregnancy- blech!) and I feel really bad that I gave it to him We're not together tonight and all I really want is to have him holding me right now. My f*cking vagina is in pain and I'm feeling emotional! I know he's already asleep but I wish he would talk to me to sleep.

I just spilled a whole bowl of yogurt on my carpet. Spilled water all over my sheets and to put the cherry on the sundae I stepped on a tack and it went all the way into my big toe. Also, while typing that I realized that I'm craving ice cream like crazy! You're not supposed to eat sweets with a yeast infection but I'm about to go downstairs and gorge.

I want to cry over everything tonight, and that hasn't happened since first trimester for me!

ALSO, my mom has been gone to Arizona for about a week now, and my best friend who lives with me (pretty much my sister) has sat around the house the whole time not doing jack shit while I"ve cleaned every single day trying to keep the house clean at least til my mom gets back. Not to mention I've been getting my brother fed, making his lunches, off to school, making him dinner and getting him to bed on time. ALSO trying to remember when I have appointments (I just remembered I have one tomorrow morning), trying to stay healthy and eat well to clear up this infection and make sure i'm eating enough for LO (have been under eating then gorging and it's making my weight fluctuate like mad)

AH just everything feels so stupid and annoying tonight! Like my goddamn methead neighbors who had the bright idea to rev their truck engein and shout for the past hour straight, now they're letting off fireworks right outside my window. OH and if that wasn't enough of a party for them, they brought out the vacuum and have been vacuuming their cars for the past twenty minutes. What in the world!?

Stupid night. Sorry for the rant ladies.

 

[teenmommy15]

i can understand how your feeling. its just one of those nights where it feels nothing is going right like for some reason everything that happens annoys the fuck out of you and everything that goes on in your life feels like a never ending dark circle. ive been there, and my emotions have literally been like a rollercoaster my whole pregnancy i dont know how marcus can take hearing me change my moods every second or go from yelling, to crying to happy again. its kind of hard to try to get through everything when theirs so much going on, trust me ive got alot going on but just think about LO whenever your really sad or think about the next time you go see OH, it may help.

 

[xforuiholdonx]

im sorry your having an awful time!!!
Can you not tel your "best friend" to go elsewhere?

 

[kayla93]

I'm sorry you are having such an awful night I had a whole week like that last week and I have no idea how anyone put up with me. I had 4 tests and a quiz all in one week and I had work and stuff to do at home on top of it, plus my LO is growing like crazy, so I am constantly tired. And then to top of the awesome week, my harddrive on my computer crashed when I needed it to study. So I know how you feel, just hang in there. Maybe try taking a little time for yourself and take a warm bath... usually that is enough to calm me down. Good luck!

 

[magic93]

Sorry to hear all that hun!
Sometimes its good to jus cry and let everything out.
Im pretty sure we can all relate.
For me the last 9 months has been a complete emotional.roller coaster, at times felt like everything was wrong, and started doubting everything! Its so hard to stay strong sometimes, but when i need a lil push i jus think bout my LO and my OH and if im not strong for them, who is going be? But its a tough feeling when you feel like youve got the world on your shoulders. But us women are built strong.
Everything will be ok hun!

 

[thecurlymama]

foruiholdon- I can't really tell her to go anywhere else because she lives here. She's living with us for two years now because her mom has lots of kids and our families have always been really close. I ask her and her boyfriend to go up to her room all the time because they're both usually stoned or smoking weed and that doesn't really bother me, but they eat so much food and leave their dishes everywhere- and at this point I'm the only person in my house that really does anything around the house. They act like such a-holes when I nag them about dishes or cleaning up after themselves, though, cause they just think that now that I'm pregnant I'm trying to "act like an adult and tell everybody what to do." That just hurts my feelings! Cause I mean, yeah, I have to grow up a little bit and I can't just be irresponsible anymore. I have to be able to clean up after myself and keep a nice home for LO and I. UGH! I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle.

Thanks ladies for all your support, though it really means a lot to be able to rant and have people that understand. I called OH late last night and he didn't answer but usually he makes me feel better but no such luck.

 

[magic93]

Wow your friend is not being a good friend at all. She needs to understand that you are bringing a child into this world and into this house. She should be supporting you and helping you out. Hopefully she comes around.
And hopefully you get talkin to your OH, i know how it is sometimes i jus need to talk to him to feel better, and it feels like noooboddy understands how i feel.

 

[jozylynn896]

Wow. I'm sorry and don't take offense to this but your friend is very obviously (from what I read) a shit friend.
Tell her your family invited her with open arms and the least she can do is clean up after herself.
If not then pay rent or something.
She is soooo taking advantage of you. I love my best friend but if she disrespected my family my hone myself and my LO like that she'd be on her ass in a second.

 

[xforuiholdonx]

^^^ exactly this! Sorry but im also not sure id take to kindly to them being always stoned. Not saying ive got anything against weed, Ive done it before and my DH smokes, but in someone elses house when there is a pregnant woman? Never. If you can afford weed, you can afford yo buy the munchies you want, and you should atleast clean up the mess when its all said and done!!! Just my opinion!

 

[thecurlymama]

Ahh, Yeah. I've had issues with my best friend this whole pregnancy. She's jealous because she assumes I won't have any time for her once my little boy is here-plus she doesn't really like OH. For what reason ?! I have no idea. He's such a sweet guy and has been nothing but nice to her since him and I have started dating! Ugh. She really has nothing nice to say about me being pregnant... whenever I talk about baby stuff or how the baby is growing and developing she says "ew gross!" or whenever I talk about my belly or how I'm feeling she laughs and says "it's cause you're fat". Although she says it jokingly, and her and I have always had a somewhat crude, offensive way of messing with each other, this is just not the time to fuck with me! Her boyfriend is a HUGE weed smoker. Like, to the point where he is just a complete idiot almost all the time. She isn't so bad, but I swear she's getting there! I used to smoke frequently, sometimes every day for weeks on end, but never got to the point where I was being totally inconsiderate of others and the space I'm living in! Sometimes I just yell at them to get out because all they do is make out on the couch and literally hump each other (gross! get a f*cking room. grow up) or they're eating and making messes. They get all butt hurt and say I'm being mean... but come on they've got to give me a break! Sheesh I'm so irritated.

Her and I have been close since we were really young, and given had our ups and downs but this is almost the last straw for me. When I first told her about my pregnancy in November she said "So, you're not keeping it right?" and from that moment on I knew she wasn't going to be a good support throughout all of this.

I just cleaned the entire house. I heard her and her friends come in the front door and dash upstairs. I opened the door to the foyer and all the folded laundry I had stacked neatly to be carried upstairs was all over the floor. I tried not to cry, but I was not successful. UGH so pissed!