hi after the birth of my first daughter 18 years ago, which was in hospital lasted 36 hours, was pushed around, told what i could or couldn't do, ended up with lots of pain relief, episiotomy, i decided when i became pregnant again 5 years ago i would have a home birth and it was the best decision i have ever made. the birth was perfect, relaxing i felt in control and ended up with a little graze, i am not going to lie to you and tell you it was pain free but being in your own home helps as you can do what you want walk around, pace the house, have a bath and try and distract yourself from the pain. 7 months ago i had my third daughter at home again and once again another perfect birth and fantastic midwives, i am pregnant again !!! and once again i will aim for a home birth. have confidence in yourself, you can do this and you will be so rewarded tucked up in your own bed with your beautiful baby x