TTC after 3 losses.... so so so scared

[FloatingKiss]

Hey lovely people,

Sorry for anyone that has gone through a loss (or more), hurendous situation... sending you huge hugs.

Well... hubby and me have decided that we are going to give it another go, Ovy (ovulation monitor) has been dusted off and we are on the countdown..... but I'm SO scared, every time I think about I could honestly just burst into tears.

I so want to get pregnant but at the same time, I'm so ridiculously scared of losing another one....

We are 'with' a fertility clinic and this time around I've been given progesterone and heparin... so I do feel as though I may get some 'help' to try and keep this one...

So I guess i was just wondering if anyone could offer any guidance/support or words of encouragement.... to help calm my fears.

It's different asking you guys on here, my friends are all fabulous but they all have 2/3 kids each now and to be honest, although they try, they don't understand... and really how could I expect them to?

The other big thing... I'm 40 in 2 weeks time! I'm sure that isn't helping with my fears...

Thanks for reading.
Lots of Love
FloatingKiss xxxxx

 

[Pixiedust22]

Hey I just wanted to say I feel that same fear of losing another one although I'm sure it's worse for you as I've only lost one... I think the anxiety will continue throughout the pregnancy especially at scans. I don't know if I would ever give up though, eventually there's bound to be a healthy baby! I'm so sorry for your losses. Don't give up!

 

[kelly1973]

hi there I know how you feel ive had 3 losses and desperate to get preganant but at the same time im so scared my last loss was a lot later at 9 weeks and still waiting for af, I too am older im 41 and really feel like time is running out hopefully we will both get our rainbows xx

 

[flou]

Hi ladies I can relate to your fears. We have been ttc #1 for 3 years and we have had 2 mcs along the way. It took us 19 months to conceive the first time and 11 months to conceive the second time, both mcs were at 6 weeks. We are currently on month 7th of trying this time round. I'm so scared of not getting pg but also being pg again because I really don't want to go through another mc. We are seeing a FS on the NHS but all they will run at this stage is some basic fertility tests and they have come back fine. They won't look into recurrent mc until I have had another even though if we do have a problem the FS reckon that it is probably due to a recurring mc issue. I sometimes feel as if I'm trying to get pg to mc in order to get the help I may need. I hope we all get sticky beans soon!

 

[makari]

Hi girls!
sorry for your losses...
had 3 mc s (sept, 13 / nov, 13 / feb, 14)
did all kinds of tests (all results normal) visited 7 doctors all gave the same answer: "it is the age matter, not all eggs are "fresh", you were just unlucky to have 3 "bad" eggs in a row. Give it 6 months and then try ivf."
did i mention i am 40?

Sometimes it seems that if i had found a problem i would have found a solution.
Every months since feb 14 the tww and the disappointing bfn sucks!!!

sending lots of baby dust to all
hope your next BFP to come soon with a sweet sticky bean

 

[Smiler79]

HI ladies I know where you are comin from. I am lucky to have a rainbow baby who was born after my first miscarriage. But I have had two consecutive miscarraiges in last 6months and it is heartbreaking.

I am desperate to be pregnant with a sibling for my daughter but I am also terrified as not sure how many times I can put me hubby and daughter through the heatbreak.

Here is hoping we all get our bfps soon and that they are our stcky beansxxxxxxxx

 

[FloatingKiss]

Thank you all SO much for replying and I'm so very sorry to hear about your losses... it's just so heartbreaking - sending you all hugs.

Definitely hoping for sticky beans for ALL of us.

Makari... I know what you mean about being told that everything is 'normal' and that it's bad luck, age, eggs not being fresh - it's frustrating isn't it. Yes sometimes you want them to find something 'wrong' in order to find a solution - crazy really... but it's good to know others think the same as me!

thanks again to you all.... this site is amazing and I truly appreciate the support... think i'd have lost it if it wasn't for you guys.

Wishing for all your sticky baby dreams to come true
Floating kiss xxxxx

 

[Pixiedust22]

It is really frustrating when you don't know what's wrong... My loss was due to severe abnormalities which are really rare and I don't know why it happened! They said it was probably a complete random occurrence but I won't know for sure until the postmortem results come back which won't be until august/september.

 

[FloatingKiss]

It is really frustrating when you don't know what's wrong... My loss was due to severe abnormalities which are really rare and I don't know why it happened! They said it was probably a complete random occurrence but I won't know for sure until the postmortem results come back which won't be until august/september.

Ohh PixieDust22, I'm sorry to hear that.... it's just awful, frustrating, sad and at times torturous!

Sending you huge hugs

We have to stay strong and keep believing... xxxx

 

[Ummi2boyz]

Hi, I'm sorry for your losses.
It is really tough, but you'll get there, we'll all get there eventually.
I have had 3 losses in a year and a chemical recently. I am still tcc, never really stopped, just when I had some tests done.
I read a few days ago that the only people that don't get home with their rainbows are the one who give. Don't know if that's true, but it helped me. I am so determined into having this rainbow some day.

*hugs* to everyone. (Hi kelly xx).

 

[Angels4]

So sorry to hear about all your losses.

I've had 5 miscarriages and ttc this month...and literally praying that it will be ok...

I am freaking out about it happening again. My anxiety is through the roof!


Hope we all get our sticky beans soon!

Best wishes
Angels

 

[LydiaMae]

Reading these threads makes me so sad and I wish all of you the happy ending you deserve. I just started fertility drugs this cycle and I'm hoping this will be the solution to my issues. I told myself I would take it one day at a time. After my second miscarriage I went and saw a therapist because I basically hit rock bottom. I was spiraling out of control into a state of depression I knew I needed help to get out of. One thing that has stuck with me is her telling me to stop trying to predict the future. I know this is easier said then done, but living in the present is all we can really do realistically. Maybe this might calm the anxiety??? It has helped me a lot. I wish you all the best

 

[flou]

I'm thinking alot about my angels at the mo. Should be my first one 1st bday in 3 weeks, should have had the same bday as me. And my second angel would have been born in 4 weeks time.