ttc after newborn loss :'( would love a buddy

[RichieesMom]

hey ladies, I'm very new to this site, been stalking for the last 4 months tho! i gave birth to my full term gorgeous son this past nov 23 (1st baby). had no clue i wouldn't be taking him home with us due to a fatal defect of his windpipe. docs said u can't see that during US so they were shocked too. he lived alil less than an hr needless to say iv been completely destroyed. beyond soul crushed. all his baby stuff, his room with him missing, not having him in my presence is unmeasurably hard. my pregnancy was a total surprise, we had been ntnp for 2yrs 9mths so that being said i just thought i couldn't get pregnant considering af showed every month! anyway, although i miss my baby richiee so sooo much, I'm absolutely desperate for another baby. of course not to replace him, thats not possible. but to fill my empty arms, to love, to help me n DH somewhat heal. we're on cycle 4 now...... praying like no other that god will bless me a lot sooner than a lot later like before!

 

[Destiny08]

I'm so so sorry for your loss I had a miscarriage this last week and it was awful. I can't imagine the pain you went through.

I'm also desperate to get back to TTC soon. I'll still feel like it's my 3rd baby, but i really want one more to love

Good luck Hoping you won't be in TTC for long

 

[RichieesMom]

thank u destiny. yes its been extreeeemely hard. n I'm very sorry for yours as well doll our babies r fine, I'm sure of it.....gods plan is better than ours. ill be praying for u for a speedy recovery! ugh, i really hope i do get a baby blessing sooner than later! opks r finally getting darker so we'll see how this month goes. not holding my breath tho lmk when you're feeling better, maybe we can be ttc pals!

 

[Destiny08]

being pals sounds great! haha it makes it a bit easier to go through it with someone else.

Hoping this month is a good one for you! I'm still waiting for the bleeding to stop, and then I have to wait a week after that. and I need to take a pregnancy test to make sure it comes back negative...otherwise I need to go back to the hospital to get that sorted out before I have any chances of conceiving..

*fingers crossed* for both of us!

 

[RichieesMom]

ur just playing the waiting game now! hopefully the next couple of weeks speed by. girl iv go my fingers, toes, eyes, anything crossable crossed! lol