Hey girls! I have not been on here since the day before I went into labor and had my little Gabriel. My birth story is not a long one lol. Woke up on 4/26 and started having real contractions, about 5 minutes apart. That quickly went to about 3 min apart, and I knew it was the real deal. I told my DH to call into work b/c we were going to have a baby today. As we drove to the hospital, they quickly became every 45 seconds, for 45 seconds long. We arrived, got to our room, and I changed into just a tank top before I was put on the monitor, being that I was only 35/5 days. They checked me and I was 5cm. They watched him for a while and then let me take it off and attempt to walk around. I made it about halfway down the hall, when I felt a gush. I looked down assuming it was my water, and saw bright red blood all over the floor. We went back to my room and let them know, so they had me get back onto the bed to check me. I was already at 9cm (this was like 20 min after the initial check). I labored through many contractions on my left side, with my right leg up in a stirrup. My bag was bulging, and I asked if they broke it, if things would progress faster. They said yes, so I told them to freakin break it!! Haha so they did, and immediately, the ctx got incredibly INTENSE and painful. Thankfully, I started pushing right away and G was born within about 4 pushes. It was surreal, and I honestly expected to not hear him cry. But he did, and with incredible lungs!! The NICU team was in there waiting, and as soon as they checked him over, they brought him back to my chest. I noticed right away his ear didnt look right, and I thought it was just stuck to his face from the white stuff that was all over him. But it wasnt, and I knew right then that he had a ear deformity
I lost it, thinking I am such as failure as a mother. My first child was born dead, and my next had this ear that wasnt developed. It still breaks my heart that he likely cannot hear from that side. We have many appts with audiologists and geneticists in the future, but in the meantime we are loving him up, and praying and expecting that it wont be as bad as it seems. Gabriel is such a blessing, and is so perfect to us. He is the love of my life! He is two weeks old now, and keeping me incredibly exhausted
We have had a rough go at it as far as breastfeeding, he just doesnt latch well at all. So I am constantly pumping, bottle feeding all day and night. It is really, really hard and many days I want to give up! We are hoping as he gets near his due date, that things will click and he will latch on me with no problem. For now, I am a walking zombie and feel like a cow being milked that cant leave my house because I am attached to my pump. Oye!
Could you imagine!?!? 
