Two years later...

[momwithbabies]

Hi, ladies. Two years ago I started to lose my baby, and I'm still hurting today. Anniversaries are the worst. I pray to God for strength, as I'm still feeling depressed. Some days are easier than others, but today is especially horrible.

Anyone still feeling the sadness of miscarriage for this long? I have an appointment to see a counselor in a couple of weeks. I've stayed in bed for the past two days because I don't feel like I can put on a smile and face the world.

 

[Left wonderin]

I lost my baby 4 years ago and still think of them every day . Around the time of their due date and the time I lost the baby I get down too for a few days . I'm sorry for your loss .its ok to feel sad and grieve . There is no time limit on that xxx

 

[momwithbabies]

Thank you, and I'm sorry for your loss. I think what makes it worse is that people you love don't remember the anniversaries, even my husband. And he doesn't understand why I'm still sad. He's the one that told me to see a counselor, but I think he said that because he honestly doesn't know how to handle it.

I know he doesn't mean to hurt me, but I wish he would just be there to listen. Not offer advice or get frustrated - just listen and let me cry.

 

[lesondemavie]

I still cry when I think of the baby we lost. It's been over a year, and I am finally pregnant with our rainbow, but it still hurts. I still wish I was holding and loving on our first so much. It doesn't make me love this one any less. It's like there is room in my heart for both joy/happiness and grief/sadness. I'm pretty sure it will always feel that way, and I think that's ok. My husband also does not understand why it still makes me sad. I told him that I want to do something special for our first at our maternity shoot and he was almost mean about it. I think grief is so individual, and it will last as long as you need it to. Do watch for depression though. A counselor is not a bad idea for anyone going through this. It can only help, and they can help you tell the difference between just normal grief and depression. Sending love and hugs your way

 

[momwithbabies]

I'm sorry for your loss. Grief is such a tricky thing, and you're right, everybody has their own process. I do see my heart having grief and happiness, side by side. I guess I don't always know what to do with it. I have two happy, healthy children that I have to always be strong for, which probably why I haven't made peace with my grieving. So much of my sadness has to be hidden.

Blessings to you and your growing family! I truly appreciate your insight and kind words.