Update on our baby - adding info thurs. may 14

[Las78]

Hun, so so sorry. I really do feel for you. You mentioned that the geneticist said there is some hope still and I really am praying for you that this can give you the strength you need right now and that things do work out and that something can be done for baby. We are so much more medically advanced these days. Take good care of yourself x

 

[ToniAnne8]

Sending you plenty of hun....x

 

[AlwaysPraying]

I'm constantly reminded that there is still hope and that's a wonderful feeling, thank you.

They said the other day that we go for another ultrasound in two weeks and will have everything we need to make a clear decision then.

I resented baby since I found out, I hated my body and hated being hungry, feeling bloated and having a tummy, it was horrible reminders that my baby was gravely ill. Last night I had a dream that I had my procedure and I looked at my belly and thought to myself, "it's empty". I didn't have a feeling about it, but remember clearly that it was gone now and everything was over. I've been praying everyday to have this just over already one way or another. But what struck me when I woke up was to take this time to love my baby, to have her with me and to take care of her the best I can while she's with us still. It will be over one way or another at some point, but for now, today anyways, I will love her and thank her for making me ill, for making me constipated, and for making me so damn hungry. She's sure made a huge impact for the tiny time she's been here and that's wonderful.

 

[maddiwatts19]

sending you huge hugs hun.. your being so strong xx

 

[AlwaysPraying]

I forgot to mention that we're having our baby anointed while she's still with me. I'm not sure what it entails, but it will be so nice to know that God is with her no matter what. I figure, I'd have her baptized so I may as well get to it sooner than later. This is something I'm proud of and will make part of this process easier to handle. I've also recently learned that termination while baby is sick is acceptable in my church which is a huge relief. Thanks for letting me share ladies.

 

[Lazy Leo]

I cannot imagine what you are going through but you are in my thoughts

 

[borntobeamum]

I think its natural to start to mourne the loss you may have, you also are probably mourning the fact that things are not going the way they should they way most mums "should" enjoy this time, and that is totaly normal, I know I felt this..

In my case, we got the bad news about Gillian, and I began to grieve for her, stopped wearing clothes that maked the "bump" obvious, and wore baggy jumpers, then we got some hope and I found it hard to bond with her again, sadly the final news for us was the worst, and although it was VERY hard, the fact that I had already started to grieve actually seemed to help as the "shock" part of it had already happened, and I got to talk to her and feel her before she was gone.

Im not sure what im trying to say here, other than dont let any of your thoughts of feelings make you feel worse, these are normall. every emotion is normal (if there is such a thing).

I think you are doing well and very strong to go through this, you are right to cherish this time with her, no matter what the outcome, she is now and always will be part of you and no one can change that.

Sending Hugs xxxxxx

 

[babytots]

hunni. x