aidensxmomma
4 on Earth, Many in Heaven
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I am so devastated. A few days ago, I got a bfp and was so thrilled. I even got a positive digital test. But I tested with the other digital and it said not pregnant. I got betas and progesterone checked yesterday.
Today they called with my results - hcg levels were 10, progesterone levels were 1.5. So things are not looking good.

I am so sad and so angry. In the last 3 years, I've been pregnant 6 times. Only one of those pregnancies has progressed past 5 weeks - that's the pregnancy that resulted in DS2. The other 5 pregnancies ended in miscarriages. While I am beyond thankful for my kids, I am devastated that this keeps happening, that I keep losing my babies. I'm getting so depressed over it and feeling like I don't deserve to be a mother or carry my babies. Maybe if I did, I wouldn't keep losing them.
