Waiting to have yet another miscarriage

[aidensxmomma]

I am so devastated. A few days ago, I got a bfp and was so thrilled. I even got a positive digital test. But I tested with the other digital and it said not pregnant. I got betas and progesterone checked yesterday.

Today they called with my results - hcg levels were 10, progesterone levels were 1.5. So things are not looking good. I have to go back tomorrow for another blood test, but I'm expecting them to be basically zero.

I am so sad and so angry. In the last 3 years, I've been pregnant 6 times. Only one of those pregnancies has progressed past 5 weeks - that's the pregnancy that resulted in DS2. The other 5 pregnancies ended in miscarriages. While I am beyond thankful for my kids, I am devastated that this keeps happening, that I keep losing my babies. I'm getting so depressed over it and feeling like I don't deserve to be a mother or carry my babies. Maybe if I did, I wouldn't keep losing them.

 

[Sweetkat]

I am so sorry for your losses. I have had 3 miscarriages, one chemical that got to 4&3 and now pregnant again (less than 4 weeks).

It's terrifying being pregnant after so many losses.

I believe that we will all get our rainbows very soon. Big big hugs xxxxx