Warning. Severe case of C.L.O.S

[LilLeafyLea]

I'm currently experiencing CLOS (crazy lady ovulation sydrome)...you may of experienced some of the symptoms yourself; patience worn thin, getting demanding for OH to DTD at the drop of a hat. There's no warming up, no time to mess about with foreplay 'just stick it in and do your thing' I heard myself say the other day...My god, what have I become ladies?!

After 15 months of trying I just keep thinking it's about time he felt some of the pressure I've carried for so long. He's so laid back about it all - too laid back! 'Relax' he says, 'it'll happen when the time's right' The time was right 14 months ago damnit!!

This obviously doesn't help matters with regards to him performing and I know I need to ease up on the crazy but this whole journey is so ridiculously stressful! I've found a lot of comfort and understanding on this site, but also a lot of threads that perpetuate my crazy lol!

The hunt for the illusive BFP is riddled with heartbreak, hope, anguish, expectations and a whole myriad of other emotions all precariously teetering upon the presence of a dyed line on a stick lol! If I think about it I'm currently relatively happy and at ease for 1 week out of my cycle (30days), the TWW is horrible, AF is a cowbag and I'm back to 'normal' for about a week lol. This isn't healthy behaviour!

Thanks for reading my ranty rant! I need some help, advice or medication ladies! Whatever you have readily available I will accept with immense gratitude lol xxx

 

[Stefie]

I wanted to give you but also tell you that your post had me I agree, we all should be put in the loony bin for some of our behavior. I think our DH's just take a "relaxed" approach to the entire TTC process because, otherwise, they'd be more frantic than us. I don't know about you, but my DH is very competitive when it comes to work or going to the gym and lifting twice his bodyweight. I bet if somebody told him they could get their wife pregnant faster than he could get his wife pregnant, he'd have a complete daily routine set out each morning. I just thank God my DH finally agreed to start TTC this year. I don't know if I could've waited much longer.

I wish you all the best in your TTC journey! Lost of crazy and big

 

[LilLeafyLea]

LMAO! You are so right Stefie! I should be thankful he isn't as neurotic as me really, I need his calming yin to my raging yang, I just wish he wasn't right all the time! If he did go to the gym I could persuade someone to make this bet (and man, am I willing to do that right about now!) He is more into his fishing than weight lifting so not sure how the seniors at the lake would take to me asking them to bet they can get their wives preg before him lol! (btw my oh is 27, not 67 - just thought I'd make that clear!)

Really happy for your green light on TTC and I hope it's a smooth and quick journey for you! I'm sending some of that your way and thanks for making me xx

 

[Stefie]

Hahaha! Thanks for sharing a laugh with me. I feel refreshed now.

 

[LilLeafyLea]

Yep! Think we both needed that! Right, OH is asleep on the settee, going to wake him up for some action lol! Promise I'll be gentle, take things slow...ok slowish hehe! Speak soon I hope!

 

[Stinas]

OMG...your post has me cracking up!!!
This forum has helped me with my madness! My husband thinks im crazy and my pregnant bff has no clue what trying is about.
The men have NO CLUE how our minds work once those lines on the OPK go dark. I go crazy!!

 

[Celtic_Cutie]

I can totally relate. My OH adds to the mess of emotions because he starts asking "is it time to pee on a stick?" (he means HPT) but he starts asking WAY too soon. So if I am trying to play it cool and not think about the wait, he's asking me every other day leading up to it making it impossible to keep my mind on everything else. Then I freak myself out so much, I cause myself to be late or imagine pregnancy symptoms. Having a cycle that varies each month doesn't help much either. Then AF comes knocking and I’m a b***h on wheels cause I’m pissed that I “did it again” (drove myself crazy). I mean really, who needs to go ride a real roller-coaster? I can experience the ups & downs of one all on my own.

Can’t really turn to anyone close to me because the last of my BFF’s in the TTC boat with me, jumped ship to catch the “baby on board” cruise ship. Are you kidding me? Both sister-in-laws and my BFF are due in November!!! My other BFF already has a 7yr old and is just starting to think about having another (and she did not need help with the first one).

Sorry, this is the first time I’ve really had a chance to vent without holding back. Not everyone knows what I’m talking about.

 

[LilLeafyLea]

I'm so happy that I'm not alone here girls! Your replies have cracked me up and made me feel so at ease!

Stinas, I do feel my crazy genes twitching at that sight of a line! I get shameless about fibbing to my OH 'the egg is only going to last another hour so get in here quick!'

It's great that your OH is so involved with TTC Celtic but it is SO annoying when you've resolved to focus on other things and you're constantly reminded of it! But when you are hopeful, thinking that this could be the month, the OH is simply not interested lol!

Don't get me started on friends and family who seem to fall preg as easy as drawing breath. The ol' Britney song 'Ooops, I did it again' springs to mind here. 'Ooops I had a quick fumble in the dark last month and Oops, I seem to be quite pregnant!' Grrrr!

Celtic, I jumped the TTC boat and I'm treading water in desperate search for the 'baby on board' ship which has long since deserted me! I am now drowning in a sea of despair lol! Enough of my tawdry sea metaphors but I see exactly where you are coming from!

Please, please vent away and don't apologise for it! Lets all rejoice in our crazy behaviour as it is just the start of the journey. Once our BFP's are in the bag I dread to think what type of an ogre I'll turn into...what fun!

 

[FrenchyMummy]

Hahhah, this definitely made me laugh! I haven't crossed the crazy line just yet, but I can see myself going there soon (we've been trying since last August). I think it is great that there are forums like this one where we can just let our hair down and tell things the way they are: yes it is barmy, yes it should be easy, and no I am not pregnant yet so stop asking!!!

 

[HottyH]

Loving this thread!!!

"Sigh of Relief!" Im not the only nutty misses in the world!! Its on my mind so much sometimes when OH, I was havin a nap, and dreamt we done it, but couldnt remember if we really did.......proper going crazy!!

And yes when we do have our BFP I wonder if we will still be all barmey!!!


Thanks for making me laugh ladies!!! X

 

[silvershadow]

Oh your first post made me laugh so much! my OH even found it amusing. I think everyone on here is a little bit mental about TTC. I know in my own way I am a little bit. I'm going to see the cons Gynae on wednesday for the first time as I am lacking in the AF department. (1year!!!! :O !!) and it drives me mad!!!

 

[wannabemummyb]

Brilliant thread! This is one of the reasons I love this forum so much; like minded ladies!!! I too am a little crazy, to be completely Frank I had a certain madness about me prior to the whole ttc journey, however raging hormones and monthly disappointments have been enough to push me that little bit further into the world of crazy!

My sanity is returning, but oh has started his journey towards the craziness! With my best mate joining for the ride! They both told me over dinner today that they are bored of the disappointment and want me to have a baby already! Ummm trying!

Let's all be crazeees together

 

[LilLeafyLea]

Ok here goes...Hello everyone, my name is Lea, I have been self diagnosed with CLOS for at least 5 cycles. I have tendancies to become irrational, angry, forceful (within the realms of the law...not reason mind, just the law !) and rarely participate in non-baby and non-TTC related subjects! All TTC and no BFP makes me quite a dull girl at the moment, even I have to admit to that!

Meanwhile my dear OH is getting better at lying with every passing day...'Course I still love you as much as when we first got together sweety! Crying is a very sexy trait hun and no, your face isn't puffy at all!' He walks in the room, sees that I am on BnB or FF and 'POOF!' magically vanishes before I can offload any of my anguish ridden nonsensical rubbish on him! Ooo he's a clever one!

As many of you ladies have written, I seldom discuss these issues with friends and family. What can they possibly say to me at this point that I haven't already heard or simply do not want to hear?! Not much! Amongst them, those who wanted children, have them and those who didn't, don't! There is no grey area, no one hanging about in limbo, no one clutching at straws or positively wreaking of baby desperation (not that I'm assuming any of you ladies have advanced to this level lol!)..just me!

Finding this forum and you incredible bunch of ladies is probably the most sensible thing I have done so far! I'm so glad to have raised a few smiles and even induced some laughter which is a foreign concept to me (I'm usually being laughed at, not with!) Just try not to laugh too much as that is one of the biggest CLOS signs...rapidly followed by uncontrollable, inconsolable crying! xxx

 

[littlepeps]

this thread made me chuckle !! .. sometimes its nice to have reassurance that we arnt going mad !!!