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FOB is coming here next sat to visit Bella for the first time *cringe*
I texted him asking if he is definitely coming (we keep arguing so i keep thinking he's not going to come) and he said is and we even discussed what we are going to do.
I'm really dreading it to be honest. I mean, mostly i just hate the guy and i have no idea what we are going to talk about other than Bella. I don't want to ask about his life, becasue frankly, i don't cate and i don't want to know. He'll only take it as an opportunity to tell me how care-free his life is.
I was scared at first that i might glimpse the person i first fell in love with, and my feelings might get confused. Then i realised the person i fell in love with was actually high most of the time (Without me realising it) and he won't be high when he comes to visit (he best bloody not!!) so there is no chance of that happening i guess!
I'm scared he'll hold Bella and she'll give him that killer smile that she gives everyone (and i mean everyone!) and he'll think he's some how special, or that she likes him.
I'd like to think this is the beginning of regular visits, but i somehow highly doubt it :-/ He kept making up excuses to why he can't come up here (he lives 200 miles away) but i know the real reason is because he's lazy. So he can make up excuses til he's blue in the face, but i know him. And i know because he has to change trains four times and it takes him 3 hours on those trains to get to us, that he just can't be bothered! He's probably never admit it to himself either, because he's a proud man and he likes to think of himself as a good father (he has another daughter that is 4 that lives across the road from him) so he probably makes excuses to himself, not wanting to admit that the reason he doesn't see his youngest daughter is because 'he can't be bothered' - but that really is all it is.
I know a man who lives in london and drives to glasgow every week so he can see his daughters for just 6 hours! That is commitment and love. That is a father who wants to see his daughters, even if it means the most of his weekend is spent driving.
Sorry about the random rant. I'm just nervous. I don't really want to see him and i don't know what it's going to be like or what's going to happen.
Has anyone else been in a similar situation and it turned out much better than they expected? (wishful thinking!)
I texted him asking if he is definitely coming (we keep arguing so i keep thinking he's not going to come) and he said is and we even discussed what we are going to do.
I'm really dreading it to be honest. I mean, mostly i just hate the guy and i have no idea what we are going to talk about other than Bella. I don't want to ask about his life, becasue frankly, i don't cate and i don't want to know. He'll only take it as an opportunity to tell me how care-free his life is.
I was scared at first that i might glimpse the person i first fell in love with, and my feelings might get confused. Then i realised the person i fell in love with was actually high most of the time (Without me realising it) and he won't be high when he comes to visit (he best bloody not!!) so there is no chance of that happening i guess!
I'm scared he'll hold Bella and she'll give him that killer smile that she gives everyone (and i mean everyone!) and he'll think he's some how special, or that she likes him.
I'd like to think this is the beginning of regular visits, but i somehow highly doubt it :-/ He kept making up excuses to why he can't come up here (he lives 200 miles away) but i know the real reason is because he's lazy. So he can make up excuses til he's blue in the face, but i know him. And i know because he has to change trains four times and it takes him 3 hours on those trains to get to us, that he just can't be bothered! He's probably never admit it to himself either, because he's a proud man and he likes to think of himself as a good father (he has another daughter that is 4 that lives across the road from him) so he probably makes excuses to himself, not wanting to admit that the reason he doesn't see his youngest daughter is because 'he can't be bothered' - but that really is all it is.
I know a man who lives in london and drives to glasgow every week so he can see his daughters for just 6 hours! That is commitment and love. That is a father who wants to see his daughters, even if it means the most of his weekend is spent driving.
Sorry about the random rant. I'm just nervous. I don't really want to see him and i don't know what it's going to be like or what's going to happen.
Has anyone else been in a similar situation and it turned out much better than they expected? (wishful thinking!)
Not been in that position.... yet... But hope it all goes ok, Your understandably nervous but remember your the one in control, not him. 
xx
So i just said to him 'ohh, go for it! No reason you shouldn't get some action too!' - so implying i was getting action, haha 
about the drugs thing. Why can't he just not do it for one weekend every so often? What an idiot. I would definitely not be letting her stay there then!!! I'm presuming he smokes weed? You wouldn't even want him doing it in the same house as she's sleeping. Like you say though, its years away. Worry about it then. If he can't stop his drug taking then he'll just have to come up to you won't he?
