A month ago I gave birth to our identical twin boys at 27+4 weeks and they were both doing incredibly well. Unfortunately, we lost the smaller one two weeks ago. He got NEC, which was very aggressive and it was just too much for him. One too many fights. Although he was doing well with regards to his breathing and coming off cpap his insides were still very immature and obviously couldn't cope.
Our other son is still in NICU and progressing well. He is our focus now and is the only reason why I get up each day. Even that is hard to do sometimes though. If it wasn't for him we would both be in a very deep, dark hole right now. Some days I just wish I could stay under my duvet but we still have a little boy who needs us, as much as we need him.
When we were told that there would be highs and lows with the boys being in NICU we never once imagined the highs would be as high as they were and the lows this low.
Our other son is still in NICU and progressing well. He is our focus now and is the only reason why I get up each day. Even that is hard to do sometimes though. If it wasn't for him we would both be in a very deep, dark hole right now. Some days I just wish I could stay under my duvet but we still have a little boy who needs us, as much as we need him.
When we were told that there would be highs and lows with the boys being in NICU we never once imagined the highs would be as high as they were and the lows this low.
I am so very sorry for your loss 
I have a friend who is going through similar, except hers are twin girls and one passed away on December 24th. 
