I do see the value in that JC, but often to get to the stage of relaxing about it, it might mean you have to accept its not happening (when it it still could) and then go through the grieving that acceptance will require - thats a long, hard, and bleak process that i dont think anyone can go through unless they are sure they cant have children. Its just not a simple process to relax, and in your friends case, i bet she went through hell to get to where she is.
I think its possible that mindset has an influence, but you have to be able to control the mindset, and the experiences with losses and TTC can sometimes take away that ability
I totally agree with this. I am in the same position of considering giving up. My mind is all over the place all the time on that matter. In one hand, I tell myself I am so lucky to be a mum of two already and to have met my wonderful OH with whom I am experiencing for the first time all the wonders of love and a secure relationship. I tell myself that my priority should be not only to be grateful of this, because I am everyday, but to devote myself to enjoying every minute of it.
On the other hand, there is that niggling feeling that I can't accept my OH not becoming a dad because he is such a wonderful person. He is accepting the possibility of it not happening much better than I am, but that's because he doesn't know what it is like to become a parent. When I fell pg, he was so over the moon, I know how much deep inside he really wants it.
Our situation is that we fell pg first month ttc, I had a m/c a couple of weeks later. We thought we would fall pg pretty quickly after that and I devoted my thoughts to ttc to maximise our chances. It didn't happen. 8 months later, we found out that OH SA wasn't good. All in a sudden, we were told that icsi was our only chance. This was such a blow when we'd managed to get pregnant so easily. We decided that since we would have to pay for it, we would wait for the results of a 2nd SA, even though we didn't think it would be any different. The only way to get going at that stage was to psych myself up to starting icsi. At our first appt with the FS, we discovered that OH 2nd SA had much improved. Count and motility fine, only morphology considered low, but noone seemed to agree on the impact of this. In the end, the message was that it would be possible to fall pg naturally. But add to that the complication of my age, 40 in 6 months, the fact that my fsh results were not optimal, nor were the antra follicular count, and we have no idea where it leaves us. Chances of success with IVF no more than 20%, probability of a natural pregnancy, possible, but percentage unknown.
I am so torn apart as to what to think. I wish I could totally forget about ttc, as in really get it out of my system (ie, not knowing where I am in my cycle etc...), but firstly I am not sure I would really be able to get there completely, and secondly, I can't help but think that if it would be better from a relaxing point of view, it can't be good in terms of maximising our chances. We normally bd about twice a week, sometimes more, occasionally less. One sure thing, no bd around ov, especially when SA is not optimal, no bfp!!! and with my age, I just don't have the luxury of time to lose chances.
However, no matter how much I tell myself that having a child is not a requirement to our happiness, how much I remind myself how lucky I am already, how much I try to distract myself from ttc thoughts, it is there all the time, with the 1ww taking over my life. Like many of us, when AF shows, I just want to give it up because the pressure of the 1ww has been too much, but I can't help myself starting all over again, convincing myself that I will NOT symptoms check, NOT count the days, NOT think of what it would be like to get a bfp... and inevitably fail every cycle!
Deep inside, I don't think I will ever be able to totally forget about ttc and therefore be totally relaxed about it, I am naturally too stubborn and a fighter to do so, plus, I am a believer that things happen to those who keep going, but I hope I can learn to find a compromise so that I don't get so affected by the whole thing.