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So my older daughter (3.5) had her first session at a playgroup/childminder's today. She'll be starting school relatively soon (either this September or next September as she is summer born and we may defer for a year), so we wanted her to start having a couple of sessions a week to get used to new routines and being looked after by other people. The person who runs it is a client of my partner's (he works with her two dogs).
I'm very fortunate not to have to work at all and have stayed at home with my daughter since she was born. Her sister was born 8 months ago.
We only went to look round today, but within two minutes, my daughter had overcome her shyness and was happily chatting away to one of the minders. When it was time to go, she said she wanted to stay, so we went off with the dogs for an hour and she stayed there. She is clearly so ready for it, and was so confident, which made me really proud of her, and we felt like we had obviously done the right thing keeping her at home for as long as we could.
Anyway, after we picked her up and we were chatting in the car about what she had been doing, she randomly said out of the blue, 'I want a different mummy'.
When I asked her what she meant she said it was just a joke, but I know it wasn't. She is a very perceptive child and could see that I was taken aback, so that is why she claimed she was joking. I know her well enough to know this to be true.
I'm not 100% sure why she said it, and I'm probably overthinking, but I have my suspicions. Since her sister arrived and even towards the end of my pregnancy when I was huge, it's been difficult to devote as much time to her as I could when she was an only child. The baby is at a very challenging stage - she is a. very clingy b. dangerously active/mobile and c. very nosey so it's really hard for me and my older daughter to play together like we did before. I do my best, but it's not enough. I know that. I also know it won't be forever, but being a small child, she lives in the moment and just sees a mummy who doesn't play the way she wants. I'm tired all the time too, so I'm not as patient as I should be, which doesn't help.
At the childminder's there were about 5 women split between about 7 kids, and one of them instantly connected and engaged with my daughter and obviously gave her the attention she has been craving.
It just makes me feel shit. Has anyone else had anything like this happen, or does anyone else feel the same guilt? Am I just reading too much into her comment? I'm 90% sure that what I have written above is why she said what she said.
I'm very fortunate not to have to work at all and have stayed at home with my daughter since she was born. Her sister was born 8 months ago.
We only went to look round today, but within two minutes, my daughter had overcome her shyness and was happily chatting away to one of the minders. When it was time to go, she said she wanted to stay, so we went off with the dogs for an hour and she stayed there. She is clearly so ready for it, and was so confident, which made me really proud of her, and we felt like we had obviously done the right thing keeping her at home for as long as we could.
Anyway, after we picked her up and we were chatting in the car about what she had been doing, she randomly said out of the blue, 'I want a different mummy'.
When I asked her what she meant she said it was just a joke, but I know it wasn't. She is a very perceptive child and could see that I was taken aback, so that is why she claimed she was joking. I know her well enough to know this to be true.
I'm not 100% sure why she said it, and I'm probably overthinking, but I have my suspicions. Since her sister arrived and even towards the end of my pregnancy when I was huge, it's been difficult to devote as much time to her as I could when she was an only child. The baby is at a very challenging stage - she is a. very clingy b. dangerously active/mobile and c. very nosey so it's really hard for me and my older daughter to play together like we did before. I do my best, but it's not enough. I know that. I also know it won't be forever, but being a small child, she lives in the moment and just sees a mummy who doesn't play the way she wants. I'm tired all the time too, so I'm not as patient as I should be, which doesn't help.
At the childminder's there were about 5 women split between about 7 kids, and one of them instantly connected and engaged with my daughter and obviously gave her the attention she has been craving.
It just makes me feel shit. Has anyone else had anything like this happen, or does anyone else feel the same guilt? Am I just reading too much into her comment? I'm 90% sure that what I have written above is why she said what she said.