Why am i posting?

[Drazic<3]

Im not even sure. And im so sorry, please ignore me.

Made a new sig for Drazic, just needed to do something, needed to feel something.

Why...after all this time, do i not feel 'over it'? I miss him so much, every day, he should be growing and learning and living. I cant let go.

OH said today that he 'cant wait to be a dad'. He doesnt understand he already is, doesnt understand he should of been if i hadnt of let him down, if my body hadnt of let him down.

Im so sorry girls. jeeze. im just feeling rock bottom and im scared. Scared ill never move on...scared i can never give him the baby we both want so much

 

[Vickie]

 

[TashaAndBump]

xx

 

[Drazic<3]

Thanks girls.
so much.

 

[elles28]

xx

 

[Pyrrhic]

Thinking of you xx

 

[Drazic<3]

Thanks so so much girls.
Your support means the world to me.

Just having a bad night, ill be okay.

 

[coccyx]

Do not know your history but just wanted to sayhope u are feeling 'better' soon. As someone who has had many miscarriages I would say do not let the past destroy any future plans or dreams. You need to grieve , but then , i feel anyway, allocate the awful experience to a place behind you. Hopefully in time you will feel able to move ahead and statistically you will have a viable pregnancy. Try not to blame yourself as often nothing you did or did not do would have changed the outcome.

 

[who's_mummy]

Gemma x

 

[becky77]

Oh hun, it was not your fault your little one was just too special for this world. Im sure your oh would be very upset to think you blame yourself and i am sure he doesnt.You will be a mummy one day and a very wonderful one at that.It is hard to put it behind you but you must try because you would not forgive yourself of you let it destroy your future. sending you lots of hugs x

 

[doctordeesmrs]

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you so much for all your support. I was just having a really low one last night and feeling a bit overwhelmed. I was looking after my bro and sis all day and people always think their mine. I was called Mummy, or mum so many times yesterday and it just got me all wound up.

'To special for his world' - thanks Becky, thats beautiful x

 

[becky77]

 

[T'elle]

just thought id pop in with some huge mahuuuusivveee hugs hunni!!! im sure oh knows hes a daddy hunni but doesnt mean to hurt ur feelings when saying he cant wait to be a daddy maybe he doesnt want to upset you or is upset himself, it is hard sometimes especially the subject of babies in our household atm, im hoping your feeling a bit better soon, but then people say that but how can u feel better about it, tyou have all these wonderful friends on here with all of us at BnB only a click away!!! lots of love hunni xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Widger]

Hope you are feeling better today. I think we all go through bad days but please don't ever think it was your fault. Unfortunately we are the unlucky ones that have to go through this and it is awful but eventually I'm sure it will happen for us.

I think it is hard when all you experience with a pregnancy is a miscarriage which for me is the case too (number 2 just happened). Still waiting for baby number one.... got to be positive though and think it will happen one day.

 

[gnomette]

dont worry i think its ok to have bad days where you just wanna cry and be emotional i know i do not very often but i do and its just cause i miss my angel an like you just wish i could change things to how they should be! i think your oh does know hes a daddy its just a man thing they are big strong men they muct not show emotion cause to them its s sign of being weak! but as we know its just not its part of being human! its strange i was talking to my oh bout this last night and as we are all different it may not be the same but i no my oh said he was worried bout forgetting our little angel and every now an again it hits him but other than that i would try talking to him an telling him how you feel take care honey

 

[Drazic<3]

Thanks so so much girls, you are complete sweethearts.

Thinking of you all, and hoping we get our happy and healthy pregnancies very soon

 

[leeanne]

 

[zowiey]

xxx

 

[ellie]

I am so sorry for you, I think it just shows how much you love him that you have these thoughts.... you will be a wonderful mum
and as others have said it's ok to have wobbles and bad days ... but it's not your fault
be nice to yourself ...