I dont know if we have officially "broken up" or not. You see, I got pregnant here in Germany, but I am from the states. In just 22 days I will be going home. He's such a sweetheart...always calling to make sure I'm fine, bringing me fresh juice and healthy food every time he comes over.. The original plan was to move to Berlin together, because that's where he is moving for work in October. One night we had a conversation about love...and he admitted, as much as he cares about me, it's not love. And we both realize that raising a baby together and living together requires love in order to be successful. So he says he will come visit every year and I will come back here too.....I'm scared shitless that it'll all fall apart. That saddest and most pathetic part is that I do love him, very much so, and that just makes it harder. Especially with all the hormones flying around. Sometimes I cry when I think about going back to the states to raise a baby almost completely without him. Then I try to remind myself "He doesn't love you. It's not right for LO. We've got to go home." I thought finding out I was pregnant was hard but it's just getting harder as it goes along.... 22 more days til the big flight.