Why do I do this to myself? (Offload, no need to read)

[linley]

Every time this wound heals a bit, I go and rip it open again. I let him get in my head and I fall for his BS every time. And I know it's BS, it's always BS but still, I let myself believe there's an ounce of humanity and decency in him when there's nothing but himself. My resolve isn't going to hold much longer.

Thank God for this forum, my only outlet.

 

[Shezza84uk]

It gets better with time sometimes the heart wants what the heart wants and we have very little control. The control will come once you have identified he will never change, accept he will never change and believe you deserve better but for now you just need to take it a day at a time. xx

 

[linley]

Right now, the heart wants to stop his heart.

I'll probably regret this but there's a very long email about to be sent. I don't want his lies anymore. I hate the way he makes me feel guilty for him feeling guilty that he cheated on me. I don't even know how he does it, but I hate it. I'd love nothing more than to never see him again, but I can't. So I'm standing my ground, putting my cards on the table and setting some boundaries. I can't keep getting to a place where I'm starting to feel human again and letting him shatter it all with his lies. We're over, we both know that, but he wants me to believe he's not over it for some reason I cant even begin to comprehend. He clearly is, he's setting up house with the "other woman" and I'm trying my hardest to be happy for him so why is he trying to slap me back down everytime I get up a bit?

I honestly wish he wasn't FOB sometimes, very selfishly cause he's great with LO but if I could just walk away and forget he exists, I'd be so much happier.

 

[teal]

xx

 

[Dezireey]

There is a strong truth in the words 'time heals all wounds' and there is also the 'no contact' rule that is a popular method of getting over someone. It's difficult in our circumstances to stop contact completely with FOBs that are still in LO's lives but do the best you can hun to cut him off from YOU. You need to heal and get over him and the only way you will do this is by giving it time and limiting contact with him. I am only now after a year beginning to sort of get over my FOB, it's been damn hard but I keep telling myself 'his choice, his choice.. you've done all you can, time to move on'. you'll feel better in time, promise.

hugs xx