Cassie10
WTT After Loss
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I haven't posted much over here so the short story is I lost my little girl on June 30 at 14w3d due to Turner's Syndrome.
I have been doing so well here lately. I have been in therapy and I feel like I've made tons of progress in healing.
Then this morning I wake up crying. I had a dream about Brailynn and it is like I am right back where I was 2 months ago. Everything I've tried so hard not to think about has just crashed right back into my head.
It is so unfair... and I'm so angry right now. I would have been a great mother to Brailynn. I would have showed her more love then I can even explain... but that chance was taken away from me.
I feel so incredibly empty right now... I feel like I am back in the doctor's office hearing the horrible news for the first time all over again.
Sorry... I'm just rambling now. I just wanted to know I guess if it is normal for it to all suddenly come back and hit you like a ton of bricks? Because I don't feel very normal right now...
I have been doing so well here lately. I have been in therapy and I feel like I've made tons of progress in healing.
Then this morning I wake up crying. I had a dream about Brailynn and it is like I am right back where I was 2 months ago. Everything I've tried so hard not to think about has just crashed right back into my head.
It is so unfair... and I'm so angry right now. I would have been a great mother to Brailynn. I would have showed her more love then I can even explain... but that chance was taken away from me.
I feel so incredibly empty right now... I feel like I am back in the doctor's office hearing the horrible news for the first time all over again.
Sorry... I'm just rambling now. I just wanted to know I guess if it is normal for it to all suddenly come back and hit you like a ton of bricks? Because I don't feel very normal right now...