Why does it have to be so hard?

[lilmisscaviar]

I feel so devastated. I was convinced I was pregnant this cycle. I had all the recognizable signs... the sore bbs, fatigue, pinching pains in my pelvis... the whole deal. I took a test today and Although this is only our second cycle actually "trying" after my mmc in July, we've been ntnp for over a year now and have became pregnant three times, only to lose the baby each time.

My doctor is at a loss as to why this keeps happening. Tests were run, all came back clean, which disappointed me even further. I know... if the tests were normal, why should I be disappointed, right? Well at least if they would have found something... ANYTHING... at least we would have known what the causes were. One loss and I would say bad luck, maybe two during an entire lifetime, but three back to back? All my doctor can do is guess...

I'm heartbroken. I can't begin to express the words I feel. I regret having two D&Cs so close together. I should have just let them happen naturally and not have been pushed into doing something I didn't feel was right. I'm pretty sure I'm out this cycle. All I keep getting are BFN, not even a hint of a line, and I've never had a BFP happen after the point I'm at now. I don't think I'll ever get a live baby #3 in my arms.

Sorry this post has been so bitter but I needed to vent

 

[Bekah78]

Sorry for your losses. I haven't any advice but thought I'd send you a hug. ((hugs))

 

[ILoveme29]

im so sorry you are having a really sad time. I know there are no comforting words. But I am sorry. I know and others on this forum im sure can feel your pain ive been trying for so long so much goes through your mind. its so hard but don't give up wishing you all the best with your next round

 

[Ltweety]

lilmisscaviar

I am so sorry for your frustrations and losses!! I have been ttc for 13 mos and had an early miscarriage in January and am right now going through the aftermath of an ectopic after waiting for so long...

Not to be too forward, but for me, sometimes I like to be offered solutions rather than consolations because it makes me feel an iota of control over this crazy process we all go through for babies!

I did try something after six months of not getting pregnant....I went to see a naturopath, because they tend to be a lot more proactive and will sometimes look at your blood work differently.

1. I'm sure with all your testing you have already had progesterone tested, but it can't hurt to use natural progesterone cream if you haven't tried that, from ovulation to af (and beyond if you get a bfp--16 weeks when the placenta takes over) (Used Progestacare--not progestacare plus)--can be purchased on amazon.
2. Started me on a thyroid support natural supplement because although my thyroid numbers looked perfect, my T3 was a little high or low (can't remember)but a regular doctor typically will only assess the overall number unless forced to drill down on it.--my coverline went up from 97.1 to 97.4 the second month
3. Used preseed, just because I have poor EWCM
4. Took 2 months of Vitanica-pregnancy prep (can be purchased online)--this helps for "stronger" ovulation and regulates your hormones.
5. Have you looked into scar tissue? One of my best friends suffered 6 early miscarriages over 5 years until she finally had the tissue removed and now she has a 13mo old son!

All of these things were looked over by my regular doctor. They just kept telling me I'm healthy and to wait...I'm not much of a "waiter."

I got pregnant the second cycle. And although my egg didn't quite make it to the right spot, I was told that my lining was thick and healthy and had it traveled correctly, it most likely would have been viable. While this is almost more hurtful, I'm glad that things otherwise looked good. So, sorry to ramble, but thought a plan of action might be helpful!