WHY.

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I miss FOB?! Okay, maybe not FOB himself but the idea of having a FOB with me, having our own little three person family. Every image I made up in my head while I was pretending everything would be perfect is shattered. Buying our own house/apartment, planning a wedding, having someone to help me raise "our" baby, having someone to support me, love me, stick up for me.
I randomly found the ONLY picture of FOB, LO and I now I'm a hot mess.
I never let myself feel it, even now I'm numb why can't I feel the sadness I know I should?! Why can't I just cry for two weeks straight and move on? Why can't I just accept that he doesn't want anything to do with Brayden? Why can't I just stop begging him to do something ANYTHING to show he cares about his son? He forgot about "our" son why can't I just forget about the "our" part he's never been "ours" he's always been mine.

 

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I know the feeling but im imagining there is a very good reason why you split up in the first place, it was probably the best thing you thought for your little lad so stick with your guts and remind yourself why.
Your all that you little boy needs and we'll both have very happy little boys without any help from those a**holes

Stay strong xx