will i regret this?

[lyns20]

Need some advice, actually just something so i know im doing the right thing, my boyfriend soon to be ex is the best when it comes to money he pays for everything i dont need to spend a penny and hes a brilliant dad always playing with him and buying him things.But thats where it ends. as soon as my son goes to bed theres silence and its draining me trying to make things work but he doesnt talk. when he does talk its mostly about a game he plays on his phone hes addicted to it. but when he looks at me i see nothing, nothing that proves to me hes in love with me. im completely in love with him i thought i would marry him and thought he was the one.even after everything we have been through.we still have sex but i feel used after it as he goes on his phone and plays his game. we have been together nearly 4 years. i nearly left him 3 weeks ago and had a huge bust up he said he didnt know if he wanted to be with me but he said he didnt want to be without me, i dont know what this means but my world came crashing down on me. he doesnt have a conversation with me to want to be with me, i think thats why i stayed i thought that maybe this argument would change things but it didnt. and being single, with my 17month old son scares the hell out of me, ive always had someone there to make me feel safe. im so lucky to have my son with me but when i look at him knowing that im going to change everything hurts me. even though im only 22 i feel very drained with emotion and always trying. its his house i live in so i will have to move with my son and start over again. i do have a job but i work for his mum so i dont think emotionaly id be able to continue work so i will have to get benefits. something ive never done in my life.
when i leave what gets me is what if i regret it?
dont really know what im hoping with this thread i just needed to get it all out. i dont really have many friends and my family think hes great and that im stupid for wanting to split up because he plays games on his phone

He is the best thing to happen to me but the worst. ive never had someone that can make me feel so happy and then the next keeps breaking my heart.

so i think this is the start of the new chapter of my life moving on and giving my son the best life he can

sorry for the book and thanks for reading

 

[fairyflowers]

have you tried having a heart to heart telling him how the things he does makes you feel.. if you love each other maybe its worth trying to work things out one last time and see how you get on, maybe relationship councelling or something

 

[lyns20]

have you tried having a heart to heart telling him how the things he does makes you feel.. if you love each other maybe its worth trying to work things out one last time and see how you get on, maybe relationship councelling or something

yep i told him i cried myself to sleep most nights and that i feel im doing something wrong for him to feel this way. i thought telling all the things i was feeling would change the way he was but its not and i know i need to go, just worried about the unknown

 

[fairyflowers]

if thats how you feel and know its not just a blip then id say go, the unknown is always very scary regardless of what it is.

move onwards and upwards, onto better things, life isnt all about money, sometimes we just have to be happy, im sure you're family will understand if you told them how things make you feel etc.

x

 

[teal]

What if's will drive you crazy. There isn't any way to know if you'll regret it but the other side is if you stay, will you regret not leaving?

I think you just have to decide how unhappy you are and if you think you'd be happier without him. It'll be hard at first but it could be worth it in the long run if you don't think things are going to improve.