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[roadrunner]

"She is more a part of your future than your past". Those were the words I heard this morning that made their way passed my ears and actually helped me. I'm sorry... I hate that I have had such a difficult time dealing with all of it lately and my losses are nowhere near as fresh as many of yours here but I have not been able to have a good perspective about it. I have read about others who seem to have such healthy thoughts about their losses but I have been almost turned off by it, unable to accept hopeful thoughts for myself. I have just been flat out angry and frustrated and longing to hold my Angels. For some reason today hearing those words from Steven Curtis Chapman that his friend had given him last year after his daughter was killed gave me peace; I actually can hope to know these babies in the future which is far bigger than the past. I can't explain it but I truly found comfort in those words. I am going to cling to that today. Much love to all of you today...

 

[Las78]

hun, glad that helped and hope this is your start towards moving to a more peaceful place in yourself x

 

[superp123]

Never thought of it that way. Thanks for sharing. I'm glad to hear that you've been able to find some comfort today.
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[roadrunner]

Thanks, Ladies. I am not sure why this hit me so differently today. I have known from the beginning that my babies are in heaven and that we will be reunited. But I guess I have not truly been able to look forward to that through my grief and desire to hold them in my arms now. I feel like God reached out and held me Himself today. I needed that kind of tangible comfort today.

 

[Jessa]

I'm very glad to hear that you're feeling more positive. What he said is very true. In the times when you're down in the future, you'll have to consciously remind yourself of this "good" place that you are right now. Thank you for sharing!