Can't comment too much...but lately I've become almost OBSESSED with breast feeding (in a non-weird way!).
I had a really awful birth...lost way too much blood, needed ops and transfusions etc. Meant I was unable to even attempt to get LO to latch for the first 2 days (ish), by the time I could, he wouldn't! Tried for hours but it was really distressing. Tried pumping in hosp - no milk. Got home a week later and pumped constantly for around 2 months...there was some milk, my boobs seemed full...but could only ever make at most 2oz a day (that amount was rare!) no matter how much pumping I did.
Today, it still bothers me A LOT that I wasn't 'able' to breastfeed. Feel as though my son hasn't had a good start (although I know this isn't nescesarily true..and would never feel that about another ff mum, it's just how I feel....like I failed, it's so natural...yet I couldn't do it!)
PArt of me feels worse about ff because I'm young. It seems like every group I go to etc, everyone bf...although sure that's not true, and think people always assume young mums wouldn't bf, just don't want to be judged. Also, know it's not true but feel I wasn't encouraged or told about ways to increase milk supply etc, which would have been really useful, only just found out about it! HV told me about a bf group but said I probably wouldn't want to go because I'm young...doesn't make sense! Can't help but think if i'd been older then there maybe would've been more encouragment,or info about pumps etc.
I know lots of people say ff is the easy way out, but honestly I think it's far from the truth, I would give anything to just be able to breastfeed my son.
Sorry this is pretty long, and probably not what you wanted! Good luck with the assignment