leoniebabey
mam of 2 boys
- Joined
- Oct 31, 2009
- Messages
- 12,454
- Reaction score
- 466
when LO was born i was fine but then my life just got shitter and shitter
constart arguments, controll and then being assaulted of my ex, but i was ok i got through it i had my nan there for support but then in september she passed away (i lived with her from being small). So that really messed me up and since then i just havnt been able to pick myself up. I hate my family there all so insenitive so never really get any support of them at all.
Team all that with a LO that cried literally ALL day and i just cant bear my shit life any more.
some days i just dont feel that i want to be here any more because its just constant crying no matter what i try to do he just crys and screams and kicks off. It doesnt help that my family and everyone else just shrug it off as if i'm making it up which im not this is a typical day:
Wake up: Cry
Go downstairs: put him down to get bottle, cry till i return
Feed: cry when i take bottle away till i get weetabix
Give weetabix: sometimes he crys in between mouthfuls
Put on mat to get dressed ect.: cry as soon as i lay him down till i pick him back up and he's dressed
Cry's till he falls asleep which sometimes he doesnt which results in him not eating his dinner.
if he has a nap he'll eat his dinner and then cry when i wipe his face, cry when i change him bum and cry till he has a nap.
He has a little bit play and then crys so he has tea, crys again for another bum change, crys because he's tired
Go upstairs: put him in cot to run bath SCREAMS till i get back and pick him up sometimes wont stop resulting in no bath.
screams when i put him on the mat to dry him after his bath and crys till the bottles is in his mouth.
Im at my wits end i dont know what to do anymore, i hate being on my own so much all i want is someone to take him for 5 mins when he's being difficult but i have no1, i have no1 to take over when my arms ache. noone even come round and help or offers to give me a break but then they brag on saying oooh i've had a night out, i've had my hair done.
He's usually okay when other people are here im pretty sure he hates me, he's okay when we go out but it's getting out thats the problem because he wont let me put him down to shower/pack the bag or do anything.
why do i have such a difficult child? I've spent the full day in tears because he's screamed ALL day and nobody woud come over to help me all i needed was someone to come over and hold him while i got sorted but no no everyones so wrapped up in their own lives to help us out.
and then i have my family saying my house is a mess, which it is because i never have the time to do it and even when i do all i feel like doing is nothing because i feel so down
constart arguments, controll and then being assaulted of my ex, but i was ok i got through it i had my nan there for support but then in september she passed away (i lived with her from being small). So that really messed me up and since then i just havnt been able to pick myself up. I hate my family there all so insenitive so never really get any support of them at all.
Team all that with a LO that cried literally ALL day and i just cant bear my shit life any more.
some days i just dont feel that i want to be here any more because its just constant crying no matter what i try to do he just crys and screams and kicks off. It doesnt help that my family and everyone else just shrug it off as if i'm making it up which im not this is a typical day:
Wake up: Cry
Go downstairs: put him down to get bottle, cry till i return
Feed: cry when i take bottle away till i get weetabix
Give weetabix: sometimes he crys in between mouthfuls
Put on mat to get dressed ect.: cry as soon as i lay him down till i pick him back up and he's dressed
Cry's till he falls asleep which sometimes he doesnt which results in him not eating his dinner.
if he has a nap he'll eat his dinner and then cry when i wipe his face, cry when i change him bum and cry till he has a nap.
He has a little bit play and then crys so he has tea, crys again for another bum change, crys because he's tired
Go upstairs: put him in cot to run bath SCREAMS till i get back and pick him up sometimes wont stop resulting in no bath.
screams when i put him on the mat to dry him after his bath and crys till the bottles is in his mouth.
Im at my wits end i dont know what to do anymore, i hate being on my own so much all i want is someone to take him for 5 mins when he's being difficult but i have no1, i have no1 to take over when my arms ache. noone even come round and help or offers to give me a break but then they brag on saying oooh i've had a night out, i've had my hair done.
He's usually okay when other people are here im pretty sure he hates me, he's okay when we go out but it's getting out thats the problem because he wont let me put him down to shower/pack the bag or do anything.
why do i have such a difficult child? I've spent the full day in tears because he's screamed ALL day and nobody woud come over to help me all i needed was someone to come over and hold him while i got sorted but no no everyones so wrapped up in their own lives to help us out.
and then i have my family saying my house is a mess, which it is because i never have the time to do it and even when i do all i feel like doing is nothing because i feel so down