I am feeling a bit down. I just really want this. I know it might be too much to ask with it been my first TTC cycle after coming off Cerazette. I am getting all the signs of BFP, but not tested a BFP! I hate this! I see beautiful baby bellies and I want one for me! Sometimes I feel like kicking myself for waiting so long. I was pregnant when I was 20, but it wasn't to be. I MC one of my twins, and had one still inside, but there were complications and the baby had to be..... (I can't say it......). It has been 15 years now. I know it says I am trying for my first, I just find it too painful to say it actually isn't...