2nd Clomid cycle failed - losing the hope

[babymaybe]

I was so excited when I finally made the decision to take the Clomid. 1st cycle was a bit odd, with weird mid cycle bleeding, and didn't work. 2nd cycle I ovulated before I could get to the clinic for the trigger shot and I was almost convinced it had worked when I didn't get any spotting at 14dpo.

So I'm now about to start cycle 3 and, I've got to admit, I'm losing the hope. I had hoped that this chemical could possibly be our chance. I'm now beginning to think that there's something seriously wrong. How can I have no infertility explanation but absolutely so BFP in 2 1/2 years?? It can't just be unlucky/poor timing.

I was never one for imagining the big wedding when I was young and I'm not one for wishing for material things now, but one thing I did always think was that, when the time was right, I would be able to chose to have a family with the person I love. How wrong could I have been? What's really scary is the thought that it may never happen.

Sorry for moaning. Just needed to write something and get it off my chest.

 

[Crypto1976]

Aw hun, I think most people are on clomid for up to 6 months before it is deemed as not to have worked.

I would keep going, maybe mention your concerns to the gp.

I hear you on the scary thought about not having a family, it haunts me too. I think however its better to block these feelings out and remain positive, I know its cliched, but I think in the long run it is a much more beneficial state of mind to be in.

I really do understand how you feel, chin up hun. XXXX

 

[MrsF]

aw hun, i can understand where you're coming from, and you really dont need to apologise x x x x

All i know in this LTTC journey is that somehow we manage to pick ourselves up and keep going - i don't know how, but from my own (and listening to others') experiences, we just do. Allow yourself to feel how you do x x x x

I hope you feel better soon hun, take it easy x x x

 

[MillieMoo]

I know how we do it! It's because we all want that baby so badly!

Try not to get too disheartened. Maybe this just means your better prepared for ovulation next month as you know when its coming. I really hope this is the month for you!

 

[BizyBee]

You can do it! There are many of us who have been through this. Feel free to vent any time, but don't lose faith hun. xx

 

[Kiki09]

I am with the girls, you can do it, you have all of us here who also are on the clomid bumpy road to BFP and I know I have really struggled with the frequent visit from the witch and no BFP.. but vent it on here and the rest of us can ride it out with you as we all go through it.

I too worry that I may never hold my own baby, but when those thoughts enter my head I tell myself that I was meant to be a mum and a mum I will be!

 

[lioness168]

I feel your pain and heartbreak. Allow yourself to grieve and when you are ready you will move on with re-newed hope. Praying we get out BFP soon xo

 

[choccielover]

I know exactly how you feel. When I was given my prescription for Clomid I could not wait for my AF to arrive so I could start taking my "Miracle Drug". Its my 5th cycle now and I know that if AF arrives this month then we've only got one more chance left.

I have unexplained infertility so it makes me think my miracle drug is not so miraculous any more.

We've got to remain positive but if I hear one more time from people with easily conceived children "try not to think about it" I will scream! How can you not think about it???? I am charting, OPKing and temping - not something I can easily forget lol.

Loads of baby dust to us all.....in the words of Loreal - WE'RE WORTH IT!!!!!

 

[babymaybe]

Aw girls - I don't know what to say - you're great. Thank you all so much for your messages. I'm glad I posted as I do feel a bit better and it's good to remind myself that I'm not the only one in the boat.

I really hope for me and all the others of you in this boat, sailing on a pretty squally sea, that our dream comes true soon.

xxxxxx

 

[Lovemyboy]

Hi everyone, i am new to this website so be patient with me if i don't know all the shortened words!lol

I never realised what people are going through to have a baby. My heart really feels for all of yous. I have a 3 year old and am trying for another baby. We have only been trying for 2 month and i am going insane because i think i am getting my period and i am so disapointed. However after seeing how long you guys have been trying i have totally changed how i feel. I am so lucky to have one and 2 month really isn't a long time! I thought it was ages before i read your posts x x

 

[Angie33]

Hi,

Im so sorry to hear the ugly witch showed her self.

I know exactly how you are feeling af came today so im starting round 3 of clomid on thursday cd2-cd6 and hope 3rd time lucky is lucky for us both.

My fs wants to see me on 19 oct to see how ive been gettin on with clomid, worrying really becouse before i started clomid he said i had slim chance of it working but wanted me to try anyway. If it doesnt work then ivf is my only option.

Fingers crossed for us both on round no 3.

angie

 

[CareBear]

Sorry you feeling like this Babymaybe - I can only emphatise (sp) and hope you feel better soon and the PMA returns x