2WW again... after 1 1/2 years trying. Anyone in the same boat?

[Blume]

Hi,
we have been trying to conceive for 1 1/2 years now, no luck. I had a HSG done 2 cycles ago. There was a slight blockage of the right side but they cleared that. Last month I had pregnancy symptoms 3 days before the calculated first day of my period. I did a test and it was positive... but I guess it didn't implant since my period started a couple days after that However both cycles after the HSG I felt ovulation pain. Never had that before. So maybe, just maybe, I am only ovulating on the right side and now I can finally conceive... Well, I am making all of this up in my head obviously. But it's again the dreaded 2WW and I am trying so hard not to be too hopeful. It's so darn difficult though...
Anyways, I just wanted to share with someone since my friends can't seem to understand. I only get the 'you have to much stress', 'just relax' answers. And then once of my friends, who just had a baby, told me again her story on how it just took one try. Thanks...
Sorry for the rant. Anyone out there with similar problems???

 

[no_regrets_91]

Not so much similar. Been at this for over two and a half years and I have never had a 2ww. Good luck. Hope this is your cycle.

 

[dodgercpkl]

tbh I don't know what my normal cycle is like since I didn't keep track of it prior to going on bc, and then after I stopped bc, my cycles were pretty screwed up. I haven't ovulated in the year and a 1/2 that we've been trying until this month. It feels amazing!

I'm so sorry to hear about your chemical pregnancy. I hope this cycle brings you a sticky bean!

 

[justwaiting]

I am currently in my tww. Well only 2 days left of it tbh. I have been trying since last august so nearly 18months and I have lost 2 babies in that time. I had scarring in my uterus from my miscarriages and am now on my second cycle trying to concieve.
As for your friends you'll never stop thinking about it, you'll never stop stressing about it about having a positive out look can only help your state of mind. It's a long hard journey but atleast your ovulating now. Good luck for this month

 

[Lizzy444]

I'm kind of in the same boat, I guess. We've been ttc #1 for 16 months, but with no BFP (I'm sorry for your loss ). I'm halfway through my tww, with a laparoscopy scheduled for next Wednesday. As of now, we're unexplained.

I too have "one of those" friends who doesn't know when to be quiet. A few weeks ago, after her asking me about our situation (we're doing injections), told me how easy it was for her to get pg with her second child (she now has 4....and I think all of them were VERY easy). I was like, are you kidding me....why in the world would you say that? I'm sorry you had to deal with your friend's story; I know that's no fun.

Best wishes to you in your tww. Are you on Clomid or other meds? Sounds like the HSG worked...that's nice!

 

[Blume]

Thank you for your replies! I am grateful to have found this forum. Although after reading your replies and some other threads I am not sure whether I should even be here. 1 1/2 years doesn't sound very long anymore... I haven't tried any meds yet. Am a bit scared of that step, but I guess that's what's coming next. As for now we are unexplained as well, although I think I haven't been ovulating before.
People can be very insensitive sometimes. Since we have been a couple for nearly 10 years and married for 3 1/2, everyone keeps asking when we will have children. Oh well, someday it will happen.
I wish I could reply to all of your posts and make you feel better. You seem like amazing, strong women! Good luck! I am keeping my fingers crossed for you.

 

[phoenixrose]

Blume, from personal experience I think anyone feeling the stress of how long the process is taking belongs in here. The people in my family are as fertile as rabbits and I'm the first to have problems (I'm also the one who waited until she was 27 to try and the rest got preggers mostly on accident at 19)...so I started to really feel the stress around 7 months of ttc...and now I'm at 24 months ttc=(

I definitely agree that friends don't always know what to say. One of my friends is super great (unfortunately super fertile though). She's really understanding, let's me vent, asks me how I'm doing or how I feel, and even told me she wasn't even thinking of trying for #3 until I at least have #1. another friend of mine though...used to ask me every month if I was pregnant yet, or tell me to stop stressing and that it would happen when I wasn't thinking about it so much anymore...how am I suppose to stop thinking about it...guess that means I will never get prego...one day I just had to tell her to stop saying things like that cause it hurt me too much, and I couldn't stand to hear it anymore. So don't worry, you belong here, and we're glad to have you here with us.

 

[racerwife]

This is cycle 15 TTC for DH and me. Went off BCP last August and feel like my body is freaking out STILL! Weight gain, acne, moodiness, etc. are all worse off BCP! I have gotten positive OPKs, but no BFP yet. I am almost past the point of frustration because I feel like I'll never see 2 lines.

That said, I am also in the 2ww. I got Pos OPK on 11/13. I think I'm 7/8 dpo today.

 

[readyformore]

Not in the 2ww now, but I've been doing this a year and a half as well. I ovulate every month.


And yes, people can be very insensitive. I know that most of the time, they mean well. But, I have had to actually walk away from people that were just being idiots.

I think you belong here as well. There are a lot of women here that have been ttc longer, and my heart breaks for them. It's just so devastating.

 

[Blume]

@phoenixrose:
I am 31 now and thinking back, I wonder why I waited so long. Well ok, I was naive and thought it would happen right away... Now I am 31 and trying for my first. 27 sounds like a good age to me and 19 is too young, at least would have been too young for me.

@racerwife:
Your story sounds similar to mine! We are on cycle 16 or 17 and I ovulated 11/14! And ditto on the acne, moodiness I am going a bit crazy with symptom spotting the last couple days but trying not to get my hopes up too much. Have you done an HSG yet? I feel like it might have helped me, although I am not pregnant yet.

Good luck to all of you!!!

 

[RM_Wife]

I am in the 2ww at the moment. I am 9DPO at the moment.

I know all too well how it feels, and I hope we all don't have to wait for much longer now!

 

[Blume]

Hi readyformore,
I agree that most people mean well. And for my colleagues, I know they don't have a clue that we've been trying for so long... but in that situation I just want to tell them not to ask me so often. But that's awkward too. I told one of my colleagues today since she asked me again. She totally understood and is just going to wait for the (hopefully sometime soon) good news. I was pretty relieved
Really cute picture, btw!

 

[flangel813]

This is my 15 or 16th cycle. Did all our testing this summer and everything came back normal. Had HSG in Sept, no blockages. I will go back to Dr in the New Year to see what the next steps are. I haven't had any BFPs since we've been trying. This is so frustrating and I know we all think that we should have started sooner but it wont' really fix what we're dealing with now. We can just go forward, one day at a time...at least that is what I tell myself.

 

[racerwife]

I got my progesterone tested today (9 days after positive OPK) and it was 15.7 ng/mL. All my cd 3 bloodwork was normal, too, except that my fsh is slightly high for my age (7.4 at 28 years old). Anyone else have "normal" bloodowork and trouble TTC? This is our 15th cycle. DH will do SA tomorrow :0

Good luck to everyone! When will you all be testing? I am going to TRY and wait until Friday...

 

[racerwife]

@Blume- I have not had HSG. Is that the dye test? This is the first month my gyn has done any testing (besides general exam). Does HSG check for blocked tubes? How was your bloodwork?

 

[dodgercpkl]

I'll probably test on Thursday even though I should probably wait a couple more days. lol

 

[Blume]

I couldn't wait... just tested and it was negative Oh, well. I thought because my bbs are so sore, it might be it. It could still be, but less likely now...

@racerwife: My bloodwork was all fine although I don't remember the numbers and now that I think about it, I am not even sure if I got those. An HSG is the thing were they inject dye to see the shape of the uterus and also check blocked tubes. It wasn't fun but my right tube was a little bit blocked but they were able to flush it out. My husband has his SA on Wednesday.. I mean I hope everything is going to be ok, on the other hand it would be good to know what's the problem too.

Well, I have 2 more tests in that pack, so I am sure I will be testing on Thursday morning unless my period arrives early.

Have a great day all of you

 

[phoenixrose]

@racerwife: all of my labs came back fine: fsh, estrogens, progesterone, testosterone, thyroid, etc., plus DH's SA came back fine as well and we've been trying for 2 years. It wasn't until my second FS noticed that I have politic ovaries that there was a possible explanation (I have mild endo but the doc said it hasn't altered the anatomy to make a diff). So now I'm on clomid in hopes to make to egg more mature and give it a better chance.

 

[racerwife]

I am SO not good at waiting! I've tested the last 2 days! I need to stop! I guess I'm used to BFNs, so it doesn't upset me much.

 

[Blume]

Well, seems like I am out again this month. AF hasn't started yet but I had cramps yesterday and it feels like it's going to start tomorrow or Wednesday Meh, I am pretty sad right now. It's just so frustrating.
Anyone has better news? Would like to hear some good news on this sad day...