I know I'm still a few days from my due date, but I'm so ready to have this baby. The problem is, I am also so not ready to be done being pregnant! And the emotional pull of that is killing me! I keep jumping back and forth between the two, and I feel like bawling every time I think about it. As much as I want to meet this little man, get this whole birth thing over with, and stop being so uncomfortable, I don't want to give up the one-on-one time with him. I've been a hormonal mess since I went on maternity leave-my mother is even avoiding me now (normally she is so clingy, but I've been really short with her lately)- if you knew my mother you wouldn't blame me, but normally I can deal with her better than anyone. I've been so short with my husband too, but he is trying really hard I can tell, so I've tried to cut him some slack, poor guy. But if one more person asks if baby is coming yet, or if I've tried all the tricks to make him come sooner, I'm gonna flip! As much as I want to meet him, I don't want to wish away my pregnancy! Worst thing is all the pressure to have him early: my moms partner (who is as close to me as my mom) has to go in for surgery out of town 4 days after my due date to have her ovaries/uterus etc removed due to cancer, so they are pushing me to try to get him out sooner so they can be here, and my husband only booked off about a week after my due date, so he wants him to be here sooner so he gets more time with him. No one seems to realize I have NO control over this!! The only sign I've had that labour could happen at some point was baby dropped about a week ago. No engaging, no plug, and not sure about effacing/dilation but doc didn't mention last week after internal exam so I'm guessing 0 and 0. I wish I could make up my mind about if I want him out now though, would be so much easier on my emotions! Sigh...I feel a bit better now getting this all out. Don't really have anyone I can talk to about this who isn't affected. My dad is pretty good, but he's like most men-give them a problem and they try to fix it, rather than just listening and letting you vent lol. So thanks for listening! I'm sure someone is/has gone through similar feelings!