3dp3dt...Going Crazy!!

[Minno]

Sweetheart so sorry to hear you so upset but I agree with Sophie, it is still early, and may be a late implanter. I wouldn't give up hope just yet. It so difficult when other people get their bfps. I have been I so many forums and threads where I've been the only one who hasn't and it's heart wrenching. Sometimes there's just no rhyme or reason and it's all so arbitrary. I'm just hoping this is our time, remember everyone is different and some people get early bfps and some don't. There's still a few more days and your clinic gave you that date for a reason - keep resting and let's see.
Sending lots of love your way - know exactly how you feel and it's a crap feeling xxxx

 

[Minno]

Ps Sophie, I'm with you on the sick if thinking about it front. I took my dog a long walk up the hills today and felt totally normal. Ah well, bugger it, if it's not worked I'm booking a holiday! X

 

[Sophie2000]

How's everyone doing today?? I'm fed up. It's bank holiday here in England so I'm sat here thinking I'm sure my AF is on it's way as I am getting the pains. I now think I should have bought a test and at least I could have put myself out of this misery.....xx

 

[ababy4us]

Same here Sophie. Memorial Day here in the States. I have cleaning and packing to do and just having a hard time getting motivated. Last night had some positives on some ICs that seem to be getting progressively darker but I took a FRER and stark white so I knew that was bad. This morning I had a tiny shred of hope left and the ICs are completely white. I don't want to keep taking the progesterone and estrogen because I know its just delaying the inevitable. There must be something wrong if my body can't sustain the life of my own two perfect embryos. Something is not right. Anyways, DH and I talked and we have 3 frozen babes, not the best quality or cells but we will try and transfer them in August sometime, after that we have given it our all and I really feel like I am done with the ART stuff. We just put our bodies through so much not to mention emotional and financial strain. I think they say if you try 3 times and it doesn't work then odds are it isn't going to. Well, in August I've transferred embryos 3 times and I think I may find some peace finally at that point. I already feel more at peace than I did last time this failed. Ugh, I bounce from being irritated to so sad.

 

[Minno]

Me too girls. Today I have had some light bleeding which I'm sure means that af is en route. Ababy4us I also feel the same way - two perfect grade 1 blasts and no joy. We have four frosties but honestly I think I am done with this circus now. I am blessed to have my son and I think it just wasn't meant to be for me to have another. I also want to stop the meds. I haven't tested either and clinic says 14-17 days which is next Tuesday! Can't see me
Taking the meds that long. I'll see how this goes and if it's obvious it's af ill test end of the week and stop then.
Ugh, this is so crap. Sophie, I hear ya. Had af pains yesterday and headache too bit also had really sore boobs yesterday. It's cruel eh?
Group hug ladies xxx

 

[Sophie2000]

I know this will be my second IVF. Both times I haven't had any decent enough eggs to freeze so if we go again it will be starting from scratch. It is so emotional isn't it, just the slightest thing just gets me upset and teary.
We have decided tat we will try four times in total as my consultant said that there was a 25% chance of it working so I figured that's one in four. Not sure what we will do after that to be honest, I know it's mainly on my side where the problems lie with high FSH, my sister has offered me some of her eggs but I don't know how I feel about that yet and want to exhaust all my options first....
Well I suppose we are both still not out just yet but it's so hard to try and be positive when I'm feeling these monthly pains... X x

 

[Sophie2000]

Hey Minno..... Could this be implantation bleeding for you..... Fingers crossed x x

 

[Deepsea]

Such a hard and emotional decision to make when enough is enough. Several years ago I said I would never do ivf, injectables or half of what we have done. Now here we are on our second round of ivf. We are very fortunate to have frosties and our RE says we can potentially do 3 more rounds of FET, but I don't want to do that many. Yes FET is much cheaper and SO much easier both physically and mentally, but this is such an all consuming process. Our lives have been on hold since this whole process started two years ago. When is it time to move on if this round doesn't work? Right now mentally I'm refusing to think this round hasn't worked... When and if I get a bfn then I'll start thinking about the next step and I the most dreaded decision of finding a new RE as my clinic is closing after this cycle. Ugh, this cycle has to work!

As for symptom spotting, I've had some very intermittent, light cramping that started yesterday. Not really AF cramping but similar. But that's it. Absolutely nothing else.... My DH travels for work and leaves tomorrow morning. I'll be 5dp5dt, too early to test??? I know it's a little early and I would be devastated if it's negative. I did find a website that has statistics on reliability of pregnancy tests by brand for each day past ovulation. Dr Google is so bad it's says that my brand of hpt will pick up accurately 76% of pregnancies at 10dpo... Thoughts?

Big hugs to all you girls, this tww+ is so hard. Try to keep positive.

 

[Minno]

My goodness we are all so similar in iur thinking and stage of where we're at on this roller coaster. It's the not knowing that drives me mad. Have to continue and see what happens. Ugh. Sophie, I guess it could be small ib. It seems to have stopped again for now but I'm not confident.
Deep sea, I think that I would test early in your situ. If it's negative you can reconcile it with thinking it's too early yet. Wishing you lots of baby dust xxx

 

[jkhkjnjhb8879]

Just wanted to say I had no symptoms at all and I had twins x

 

[Minno]

Oh wow jkh - that's put the cat amongst the pigeons ! Mega congrats on your twin girls! Xxx

 

[Minno]

Did you get symptoms later on? X

 

[Sophie2000]

Hi All,
How's everyone today?
I'm ok, emotional rollercoaster as all other failed times I have come on AF a day before blood test which I guess should be today and so far nothing. I hope it's not my body teasing me and I get bad news tomorrow.....arggggh I hate this waiting x x

 

[Minno]

Been thinking of you today Sophie. That's exactly what happened to me before - af day before the beta. My light bleed stopped yesterday, came back a little this morning after the toilet (sorry tmi) and nothing since. Who knows what's going on. Could be af trying to come thru but meds holding it off! Trying not to hunk about it.
I think it's a good sign Sophie, bet you get a lovely bfp tomoro! Hoping for the same for you ABaby - it's our time! What time are your beta tests? When I had mine done last time it was done in the morning and I had to wait until 5 pm for the result - was agony! Xx

 

[jkhkjnjhb8879]

I was only sick 3 times but all during car journeys x

 

[jkhkjnjhb8879]

I also bled alot xx

 

[Sophie2000]

Test is at 8.00am and results not until 2.00pm so it's going to be another agonising wait...
I hope it's implantation bleeding Minno. When are you going to test?
Hope your ok ababyforus.......
X x

 

[Deepsea]

Sophie FX for your beta tomorrow. My clinic also made we wait all day for beta results. Evil...

Minno, are you using progesterone suppositories? I hear it's very common to have breakthrough bleeding with those. They make the cervical tissue very irritated and bleed easily. Are you going to test early?

AFM, I couldn't hold off any longer and tested last night and this morning. BFN. But today I am only 5dp5dt, so still early. Will try yo hold off on further testing until this weekend, but we will see how that goes....

 

[Minno]

That's amazing Jkh! That's less symptoms than I had with my singleton pregnancy. Don't fancy the bleeding a lot bit though altho I've heard yiu do tend to bleed a lot more with twins.mare we talking spotting or more significant, and from when? Scary stuff. How did you deal with that?

Sophie wishing you all the luck for tomoro, I will be rushing on here tomoro to hear your news.

Deep sea, so brave of you to test hunni. Still way too early to know anything really. I've heard of only a few cases where ladies can get a positive that early but mostly it's a bit later around 9/10 days post transfer. Hoping for a bfp for you in a few days.

Good luck to all of us. ABaby how are you today? Lots of luck for your beta tomoro - please update ASAP xxx

 

[Sophie2000]

I've started spotting this morning so AF is here. Gutted can't believe it. Good luck to you all though. X x