4 weeks on....

[holly81]

Ok, so it will be 4 weeks tomorrow since I lost my first pregnancy at 14 weeks. I thought I was really dealing with it but towards the end of last week it's like it has hit me all over again.

On Thursday I managed to cry in a meeting with my boss, not once but twice, and then Friday night I got home from work and all I could do was sob from pretty much the moment I got through the door until yesterday lunchtime.

I think perhaps exhaustion after my first week back at a very stressful job isn't helping, I know the grief is definitely less now that when the m/c had first happened, but this weekend I can't hold it in and control it like I was. If it is my job causing the problem I don't know what to do - I'm obviously not recovered from last week, despite 10 hrs sleep the last 2 nights, it's Sunday already and I'll have to be there bright and breezy tomorrow morning.... The other option I suppose is perhaps my first bout of post m/c pms?

My poor OH... I keep trying to explain I'm just grieving and full of hormones, but even I'm not sure if it's normal to still feel this way now? Sorry I seem to just be waffling to myself now! Really my question is, having been feeling so much better is normal to hit such a dark place again? Has anyone else experienced this and how did you get through it?

 

[toby2]

Sorry yourhaving such a tough time- for me it comes and goes as well, I hav been fine for a few weeks and then not but it does settle-if i am honest I found the time around a/f toughest for lots of reasons. i think how your feeling sounds completly normal to me-did you get any counselling/I had some with the hospital counseller first time and it really helped-be kind to yourself,its still early days
xx

 

[bklove]

I'm sorry you had to go through this process, and grieving is exactly that a process. So try to be good to yourself and don't be afriad to let your emotions out. You may want to find positive and creative ways to express them so that it doesn't come out as much at not so great times. The emotions do come back at times, and that is normal, eventually though as you've already noticed it does get easier, but it does take time.

 

[plumplump]

Hello Holly, I understand how you feel, it has been about five going on six weeks since we lost our baby and today I felt like ripping out the throat of a friend who was openly smoking at 15 weeks pregnanat. It hit me hard for the about the first week after it happened and then I was okayish but some things still trigger my emotions off. However it is all normal and part of the grieving process so don't worry about it too much petal strength grows with each passing day and you are prefectly normal in your responses. take care and I so hope your pain eases soon xx

 

[KelBez]

I'm sorry for your loss. I have lost 2 angels. I know how it feels. I still have not forgot the pain it caused me and my husband. The best thing that helped me was to cry, everyday if I had to... keep your head up hunnie. Things will always get better.