A Bit Upset with Him

[Landingmach3]

So...baby's vatti and I (baby's dad) originally were going to make it work out..move in together, raise baby....and then he chickened out and couldn't do it. He wanted to go explore the world! How could he be held back by his own flesh and blood?! Well...we were both in germany and I moved back to America. He agreed to make child support payments and come visit once a year, maybe more. I was kind of looking forward to him coming in December to see our little baby after she (or he!) was born.... About a month ago he got a job in Ireland....and at this point it looks like he won't be coming here after all. Says perhaps in July. Why doesn't he want to see his little pumpkin when he or she arrives? Wait 7 months instead?! I just don't understand...How can someone help create a life and then not want to be a part of raising LO? The worst part is I keep saying I'm okay to raise him/her on my own but in the back of my mind I'm a bit afraid. For some stupid reason I still have feelings for him. He acts very noble about everything and doesn't come off as being a jerk, even though I think he became one the day he ran from all the responsibility and admitted I would be doing all the work really. I'm just in a bad mood and I feel like that's wrong. I should be excited....baby will be here sometime between now and 27 days from today! I can't wait to meet LO, but at the same time wish HE were here. Sorry about the little rant there. Thanks for listening all.

 

[Foxxy]

U know I felt like u several months ago, as my ex was acting like ur boyfriend. May be just situation a little bit different but his actions were the same and even my feelings were like urs: feelings towards him and fear a little bit. And probably till the last moment I thought that we'll be together (now i'm raising OUR child by my on). I also like u still couldn't undestand how someone who created this life as well as me doesn't want to be part of his/her life. And probably everyone has their own answer on this simple question. And my ex as well. But I don't know his answer as I couldn't put his head instead of mine...
Everything works out - don't worry! Especially when u see ur little one!