A depressing thought

[Cassandtina1]

On september 11, 2012 a few short months from now will be exactly one year since my join date on bnb, I honestly thought I'd have a bfp to show by now. Wow I just checked my join date and just now realized how long it's been. Plus I tried over a yr and a half before joining bnb. Thank u to all the wonderful ladies who've supported me and put up with my whining lol over the past almost yr. Couldn't have done it without ya!

 

[tamithomas]

sorry to hear that you are still here. just joined the forums a few months ago but had been trying for 3 years prior, at least on the upside we got your backs and you got our support

 

[Cassandtina1]

Thanks I just had this crazy realization how the yrs are like flying by and I'm still not getting pregnant. I know we gotta think positive and all that but it's hard when u look at the while picture and think "dang how has it been that long and I haven't gone crazy and stolen babies from the hospital"*

*overdramatization plz don't be alarmed and call pshyc ward ***

 

[tamithomas]

haha no worries i get my moments as well with just wanting to raise my hands up in the air and call in the white flag especially i dunno why and dunno if i'm the only one noticing but lately there's been nothing but family bonding type of episodes on every show possible or pregnancies. My favorite show Bones, the season got cut short because not only did she act giving birth in the show but she had to go on maternity leave in real life.

My DH recently showed me Howard Sterns life movie and I couldn't help it in the movie when Howards wife announced being BFP after her loss I went "man I want her eggs!!!" because she got her BFP so easily after her MC. Although gotta admit, even though I never went through a loss I balled my eyes out with her and wanted to jump in the screen and hug her. I guess that part of the movie I appreciated because for once a movie depicts that TTC is not all sunshine and rainbows that people make out to be.. although at the end you find out they successfully have 3 LO which kinda killed it but still, liked that they touched that subject especially since it's all real events.

 

[Cassandtina1]

Nope it's not only u. Lol even channel surfing I'm like baby, next baby, next baby, next ooooo cartoons.... Crap baby, next lol.

 

[L61195]

I know how hard it is, trust me. Try and keep your head up even though month after month of let down gets pretty old pretty fast.

What helped me get through the years was after each failed cycle I would think through the crying and glasses of wine, at least I am now 1 month closer to my BFP!

 

[Cassandtina1]

Awh how many yrs were u ttc before u got your bfp?

 

[L61195]

2.5 years. Long years lol

 

[Cassandtina1]

Wow I just saw ur ttc history those must've been long yrs after all you've been through!

 

[Bepaisley]

2.5 years. Long years lol

I'm on to my third IVF, ur story def gives me hope cuz at this point im feeling like it'll never happen, its been 3 years! I'll be having my FET soon, so happy for u!

 

[Cassandtina1]

Thanks for your support and making me realize that things could be so much worse. I guess I'm lucky that I'm still really young and will probably have at least another five or so yrs before having to do ivf or anything like that. I just wanna give some big hugs for all you guys have been through! XX

 

[L61195]

Just keep on truckn'! That's really all you can do. It's a very long road but it will hopefully happen soon! Then all of these cycles and years will be all worth it. Good Luck!!