A Mother's Grief

[babesx3]

A Mother’s Grief - by Unknown Author

You ask me how I’m feeling,
But do you really want to know?
The moment that I try to tell you,
...You say you have to go.

How can I tell you,
What it’s like for me,
I’m haunted, I am broken,
You start squirming on your chair.

Because I am lonely,
You see, no one comes around.
I’ll take the words I want to say,
And quietly choke them down.

Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don’t know what to say,
They tell me “I’ll be there for you”
Then turn and walk away.

“Call me if you need me now”
That’s what everyone said,
But how can I call you and
scream into the phone,
“My God, My child is dead”.

No one will let me -
Say the words I need to say,
Why does a Mother’s grief,
Scare everyone away?

I’m tired of pretending,
As my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
But my soul, it finds no rest.

How can I tell you things,
That are too sad to be told,
Of the helplessness of holding a child,
Who in your arms grows cold.

Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
Who’s had to follow their child’s casket,
Watched it perched above a grave.

You cannot imagine,
What it was like for me that day,
To place a final kiss upon that box,
And have to walk away.

If you really love me,
And I believe you do,
If you really want to help me,
Here’s what I need from you.

Sit down beside me,
Reach out, and take my hand,
Say, “My friend I’ve come to listen,
I want to understand.”

Just hold my hand and listen,
That’s all you need to do,
And if by chance, I shed a tear,
It’s alright if you do too.

This sums up perfectly to me how i feel. First read in 'Huggles' thread, but thought i would share with you!!! xxx and floaty kisses to our angel babies.

 

[cla]

thats so right hun

 

[mommyo2girls]

that is how I feel too

 

[babesx3]

to you 2 too!!! xxx

 

[Jox]

x

 

[babyno9]

So true. (((hugs)))

 

[Jkelmum]

This is so true and nobody ever truly understands unless they have been there sorry for your loss of angel

 

[kaleighdaisy]

I started crying at this. It explains everything perfectly. My little brother died this year, and that reminded me of him.

 

[babesx3]

so sorry for the loss of your brother XXX

 

[Suze]

Thanks for posting this again Nats. This goes round my head day in day out at the moment as it's so horribly accurate.

 

[babesx3]

Suze... it is so lonely grieving for a baby other people didn't know

I do seem to be more ATM....

I know what you mean about the poem, for me esp the bit about screaming 'my god my babies dead'...
and i do keep thinking about placing a final kiss upon charlies coffin..

I know you have been there already, so it must already sting those words.. Suze...

Our babies are still alive in our hearts and will always be there.......

I keep trying to think positively , that i was lucky to have seen him, and touched him, touched a real little angel..... and now he plays in the clouds with his mate Joe..
Our boys are at peace now. Its just hard to be strong when we miss them so much


Suze XXX