A year today...

[MariaF]

Since we've been trying I k ow for many girls on here it's nothing but to me it feels like an eternity!!! And I only ovulated 3 times in this time, even with Clomid. We made a joint appointment to see a GP next week so hubby can have a SA.

Just wanted to get it off my chest really again
I sometimes think it will never happen for us, like we weren't destined to fall pregnant and have children. It al seems so surreal to me that I cannot imagine ever getting a BFP

 

[hopefulchick]

So sorry you are feeling down at the moment. I can totally relate being that I have just completed my 3rd round of Clomid with another . I know how you feel because I also have those moments that I can not ever imagine getting a positive test. I really hope your DH count is great and that will give you a boost to continue on. I don't know where my journey will take me and how long it will take me to get there but I know deep down in my heart I will be pregnant and so will you Good luck.

 

[TTCNumbertwo]

Sorry MariaF, I know how hard it is to struggle with LTTTC! I hope all goes well with your appointment and they can give you some answers!

 

[navywife04]

I know exactly how you feel. We are 3 weeks away from a year, and I can't believe it.. I feel like it will never happen for us! But it will. For both of us ladies!!! Let me know if you need someone to talk to!

 

[PR&TR13]

I'm sorry u feel this way. I completly understand!!!! We r 2 months away for our year of ttc & today I find out that both my tubes r blocked!!! I was devistated bc now not only do we have to deal with low count & motility but also this!!!! I seriously even told my husband what's going to be my of life? All I can think of and all I'm doing right now in my life is for our future family and that family just keep feeling further away!!! But I believe it's Gods will & just ask for acceptance!!!

We have to hang in there and not lose faith, it will happen!!! Fx fairy dust for everyone

 

[MariaF]

Ladies - your support means the world! I think it's quite a selfish thing to feel and say but if you know someone's in the same boat as you and feeling as low as you it sort of makes things easier? I hope you know what I mean!

Till I discovered this forum I always thought I was alone. Because obviously other ladies around me woudn't show how they feel about kids even if they had problems. So I just assumed Im the only one feeling THAT depressed.

Im really greatful to my hubby as I can tell him anything and he'll be really supportive. But still even he (not being a woman!) can't really understand just HOW bad it feels to know you may never be able to have a child.

Navywife - yeah, Id love someone to talk to. So feel free to send me a private message and Ill do the same

I need to be constantly doing something towards my BFP. It's sitting here doing nothing and just waiting that makes things worse. So I am really hoping the appointment next Wednesday will be a start to the next steps. Ill ask for Provera and start the next Clomid cycle - but this time Ill be monitored so at least that means regular scans and seeing what's going on.

 

[keyahopes]

A year here too. Lets hope we all get to our destinations eventually!

 

[summerbreeze8]

I am also on cycle 11 with one tubal early miscarriage. A year is long a time, especially when you feel a year older & realise you could be another year older when you may finally have a baby. I'm an impatient person and the waiting game is horrible. Hang in there chick, we all feel the same. X

 

[tidyroom]

Ladies I am the same situation. I feel like it is not going to happen. My DH is getting his swimmers tested this week and I am very nervous about it. Its so good to know I am not alone as no one around me understands.

 

[AG75]

I'm a year this month too. Just had an HSG and really hoped I would get pregnant this cycle but I'm getting PMS and feeling like AF is coming, so I'm bummed out and discouraged, again, ugh.
A year of dissapointment is a long time but hang in there.

 

[MariaF]

Ladies I am the same situation. I feel like it is not going to happen. My DH is getting his swimmers tested this week and I am very nervous about it. Its so good to know I am not alone as no one around me understands.

We are hoping to get a referral for hubby's SA on wednesday. Im also scared about SA...I think it's easier to deal with things if they are wrong with you rather than OH...

Ive had HSG done and they removed mild spots of endo, but both tubes and uterus looked fine back in June. So fo me it's just lack of ovulation.

I was talking to some people about "feeling like it's not going to happen" and was told to NEVER think like that! Because our subconsciousness (sp?) is a powerful thing and if your mind "knows" you can never get pg, you WILL never get pg! So I started telling myself like a mantra that it will happen, that I will get a BFP, get a baby bumo, go through labour and get to hold my own precious, perfect little bubba! And do you - if I really think hard about it I can almost imagine it and it gives me such a boost!

I think a year is sort of a milestone because from now on the countdown is no longer in months but years....