AfterAbigail
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Hello,
My husband and I lost our baby girl Abigail on the 22nd September 2009. I was 42+ weeks and was in labour. Abigails umbilical cord suddenly snapped off about three inches away from her belly button and no one can really understand how or why it happened. The cord and placenta were in good condition and all the tests they did on me indicated I was fine and there wasn't any infections. Abigail too was perfect. They think that she may have been positoned at a funny angle and one of my contractions caused it to snap. They are sadly only guessing as all the professionals involved said they had never seen it before. It happened very suddenly which is why no one realised anything was wrong for a few minutes as everthing had been normal and running perfectly. She never got ino distress, they say it would have been like she just fainted and didn't come back around. There wasn't enough time to get her out but they tried and rushed to have me under a general. It's so hard. Just typing this too you now has me in tears. Nearly ten months on and we are starting to try again.
I'm afraid of the following:
1. That we wont get pregnant again
2. We get pregnant again and we lose another child
3. The pressure of that pregnancy
4. That I let my husband down
5. That I did something wrong the first time
6. That I have to be perfect
7. That Abigail will be angry or think we are trying to replace her
8. That Abigail wil be forgotten by others
9. That some damage occured during my emergency c-section
10. That I wont feel happy ever again
Ahhhhh!
My husband and I lost our baby girl Abigail on the 22nd September 2009. I was 42+ weeks and was in labour. Abigails umbilical cord suddenly snapped off about three inches away from her belly button and no one can really understand how or why it happened. The cord and placenta were in good condition and all the tests they did on me indicated I was fine and there wasn't any infections. Abigail too was perfect. They think that she may have been positoned at a funny angle and one of my contractions caused it to snap. They are sadly only guessing as all the professionals involved said they had never seen it before. It happened very suddenly which is why no one realised anything was wrong for a few minutes as everthing had been normal and running perfectly. She never got ino distress, they say it would have been like she just fainted and didn't come back around. There wasn't enough time to get her out but they tried and rushed to have me under a general. It's so hard. Just typing this too you now has me in tears. Nearly ten months on and we are starting to try again.
I'm afraid of the following:
1. That we wont get pregnant again
2. We get pregnant again and we lose another child
3. The pressure of that pregnancy
4. That I let my husband down
5. That I did something wrong the first time
6. That I have to be perfect
7. That Abigail will be angry or think we are trying to replace her
8. That Abigail wil be forgotten by others
9. That some damage occured during my emergency c-section
10. That I wont feel happy ever again
Ahhhhh!