Its hard, i just know that the hospital will be the same as it was when i was in the the last two times. even though it is under special measures. i know people that have given birth there recently and they haven't even cleaned it up properly STILL.... i had faith in dec08!!! Skye in feb 07.... youd think they would have done something by now. i couldnt even shower after i had faith because the showers were covered in other womens blood! eurgh, makes me so angry.
I am really thinking about my birth plan now, this evening. I have also started to put an emergancy bag together and a box of labour stuff for home so that everything is in one place.
Im going to see what the midwife has to say next week, she seems to miss the point on alot of what i have to say.