ericacaca
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Sadly we lost our baby at 17 weeks. We didnt want to look at baby or have a photo, we don't want to give it a name, we don't want to really go to the memorial service that the hospital offers.
When I hear of so many ladies wanting as much as they can to remember their baby it makes me think that I'm just a heartless cow who just ignored their baby when it entered the world. But its not that. Its just my way of dealing with it. If I had my way all I want to do is pretend it never happened and just get on with life... but family and friends kinda make it difficult and to be fair reality keeps on kicking in and thats when it hits me!
We have faith in God, but I don't want anyone praying with us about it. I suppose its cus it'll make it more real to me... I don't need that yet. Plus its just created even more questions than I've ever had before about stuff!
Has or does anyone else feel like this????? Or am I just a heartless cow?
Thanks xxx
When I hear of so many ladies wanting as much as they can to remember their baby it makes me think that I'm just a heartless cow who just ignored their baby when it entered the world. But its not that. Its just my way of dealing with it. If I had my way all I want to do is pretend it never happened and just get on with life... but family and friends kinda make it difficult and to be fair reality keeps on kicking in and thats when it hits me!
We have faith in God, but I don't want anyone praying with us about it. I suppose its cus it'll make it more real to me... I don't need that yet. Plus its just created even more questions than I've ever had before about stuff!
Has or does anyone else feel like this????? Or am I just a heartless cow?
Thanks xxx