am really struggling with going back to work

[daisy9]

I go back in just over a week and I can't stop getting upset about it. I know she will be looked after well by nursery and grandparents (even if I do foresee some arguements) I just hate the idea of anyone else looking after her.

I want to be there for my baby, I love being with her and 4days away from her just seems to much. I feel like I have been pushed into going back when I'm not ready as work made me commit to a date months ago. Someone else is doing my job and sitting in my seat and I just dread it. I'm still up in the night tons with lo (last night 12-3, then an hour crying about leaving her) and I'm exhausted!

My in laws came over today to spend some time with her and they never let me near her when they come. It makes me so unhappy and reminds me soon other people will be with her all day while I'm struggling with a new job I'm too tired to do. I keep looking for something from home or less hours but nothing pays enough. I so badly want to be a pahm!

Please tell me this gets easier and she will still love me

 

[Ganton]

I'm back in 2 weeks, and starting to feel exactly the same as you. I took LO for a long walk earlier, and was starting to get upset as I thought about how different things will be in a few weeks

I really hope someone can reassure that it'll he ok. In fact, I'm sure plenty of people have felt like us, then settled in just fine.

 

[Indigo77]

 

[scoobydrlp]

I'm right there with you, I go back mid march and am dreading it. I love being with LO all day and being the one providing for her needs, and I hate that she'll have to be in daycare all day, only to come home, see her for a few hours then send her off to bed. It makes me so sad thinking about it.

 

[bumblebeexo]

I'm the same. I'm due back to work in a few months and I can't bare the thought of it! I have to go back though, otherwise I'd owe some of my maternity pay back and also they're putting me through my SVQ qualification which will be a good thing to have.. My plan is to go back, hope the time goes by quickly, get my SVQ, get pregnant and become a SAHM!
I just wish I had said I wasn't going back, but I did.. I thought I'd be back when LO was 6mo and everything would be great! I still have a little while yet but I always think about having to go back.

 

[LilyValley]

Im the same and I think about it every day, I'm so sad about it. I don't have the choice and will have to go back full time, my DH has health problems and we have a mortgage each. I'm reassured that LO will still love me because no one can look after him as well as me and he knows that . If I could be a SAHM it would be perfect, but it's never going to happen for me. Just focus on the fact you will work to make his life better, to provide for him and to make the time you do have together more special. X