Angry vent.

[MommaAlexis]

I'm still kinda processing everything and just been really angry about this whole thing all week. I've been working my ass off, had to go on stress leave, everything's up in the air. Back story if you don't know it. Was with my FOB for 2-3 years and engaged. We put off the wedding, which would have been August 05, 2011, we were arguing waaay too much over it, etc. and we had separated temporarily over it. We went through a lot of stuff and counseling to sort everything out but finally got our priorities straight again. We had been talking about TTC for about a year, and decided to finally start trying in December. He has two daughters already with two different mothers, I had been under the impression they were the ones keeping them from him. Have since found out the truth. We moved away from our hometown (nine hours away) to get away from the small town drama. We started NTNP right away. I had finished my period the day before I moved down. (I believe, if not a day or two after I moved down) My step daughter is Cyanna. There's a lot of history there, but we used to have 50/50 custody of her. I miss her. I still get to see her now, but it's not the same. I'm not step mom anymore. I'm Aunty Alex. To get back to the point, this whole thing started with my friend asking if I wanted to watch How to train your dragon. FOB and I got back together during that movie lol. and it just reminded me of all the BS I went through for him, his daughters, our family. This ASS ruined my family. The one I took years to build, and decided to have a kid with me then leave. He accused me of cheating and kicked me out when I was 9 weeks. And hasn't replied to me since then. That was MY family he just ruined, how DARE he? then not even have the guts to face me? And is now dating again? *sigh* I had a family, and now it's just me and Lara. I know that's a lot, and I could have nothing but I spent my mornings watching cartoons with him and Cyanna, videotapping our first christmas together, baking pies for thanksgiving. And now it's just me. I know it'll get better when she's here but she's not here right now. I don't miss him, I miss my family.

 

[Miss_Quirky]

I am sorry he is such a prick to you. I'm in a halfway similar situation, far away from my home town with just my son but I am stuck living with him and his family...I can't get AWAY From him.

But I am sorry you lost your step daughter like that That's hard, and unfair to you...Just let her know you will be there for her always?

 

[dustbunny]

You and Lara are a family unit. You will bend over backwards for your lovely daughter, watch cartoons with her, video tape your Christmases and Birthdays, bake cakes etc. Just because FOB has been a major major MAJOR dick to you doesn't mean he has to ruin everything. The fact he has already started dating whilst you're still pregnant with his child shows what a disgusting piece of dirt he really is.

One day you might find a lovely man who wants everything with you, genuinely wants everything. He will move mountains and the sky to be with you and your LO. And even if that's not what you want I know you are a lovely person, a strong person and will overcome this brief moment of sadness.