Another Hard Day..

[AEM1803]

Well today is Father's Day...

My OH and I had a Huge breakdown today.. when he realized that it was supposed to be his first father's day
I did the same thing on Mother's day.. I cried almost the entire day thinking about the fact that I was supposed to be pregnant and have my baby growing inside me..

It was such a horrible feeling to see my OH crying and so upset.. It just broke my heart.. knowing that it was my body that did this to us

ugh

 

[SeaThreePeeO]

((((hugs))))) I understand how you feel. I too feel as it my body betrayed me and my husband. Sometimes I do think we're all too hard on ourselves.

Sending lots of love, hugs and positive vibes xxx

 

[daopdesign]

oh hun I'm sorry you had to go through a loss, it's the worst thing any couple must cope with and it's good to cry and get things out xxxx

 

[Tweak0605]

Lots of hun!

I've been feeling the same way today. Except I've had to paste a smile on my face all day, since we're at the ILs house. It really does suck sometimes, but you will get your rainbow baby! It will be much sweeter when you do, because everything you've been through.

 

[jamhs]

Sorry you have been having a tough time today! Really hope that this time next year you will have a baby in your arms or growing in your belly. Hugs!

 

[peanutbear]

I know how you feel and its very hard. My husband and I feel deep down that we are a mother and father. Even though we couldn't meet our babies they are up in heaven. Someone shared a poem recently that I should find- it made me feel better, but it also made me cry. I'll try to find it.

 

[peanutbear]

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
when your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say..."

We go to earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear,
My mummy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mum,
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My mummy set me free.

I miss my mummy oh so much
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillows were I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here."

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home
And this is where they'll stay."

"They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize
You are a mother. Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one.

 

[AEM1803]

peanutbear-
thank you so much for that poem - it brings tears to my eyes everytime i read it- its beautiful

 

[Starlee]

Beautiful, thank u so much for sharing that. It would of been my due date 2day. we going 2 set some wish lanterns off 2nite. xx