not sure to be honest, i just dont feel good about myself atall.
I wont let Jase anywhere near me and then i feel guilty for pushing him away.
I just dont feel like im a very nice person and i dont feel like i deserve everything i have, god i sound like a right whinge bag lol im not looking for sympthay, honestly im not.
I just feel like sometimes i should and would be better off on my own, no Jase no kids, no friends etc
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