HI ALL!!!!!!!!!! Finally managed to come on here. My laptop hasn't been working.
Glad everyone is doing well. Tanikit thats horrid story. I hope you're all ok.
Me and baby are good. He was born on a Thursday (19th) and we were supposed to come home on the Sunday but a) I had a MASSIVE hypo at hosp that night (they admitted me back to labour ward from maternity ward) and b) my little bubba had jaundice
I know jaundice is common for new borns etc and no big deal but I cried so much in hosp. They moved me to a private room and stripped him, put a horrid mask on him and put him under light. I couldn't sleep at all. He kept pulling the mask down to his nose and I was scared he would suffocate. And he was so cold he kept shivering all night.
Anyway his jaundice got better and we were out on the Tuesday. I was getting quite depressed in the hospital. He is today 17 days old.
My induction went well. On the Weds at 11:30 they shoved a tablet up me. It was one of the worst experiences ever - worse than losing virginity!!! I was 1cm then. Six hours later they gave me another prostin. This experience was equally bad!
They didn't give me anymore that night incase I went into labour overnight and didn't want night staff to do a c section on a diabetic (this is what they told me!).
At about 11pm on the Weds I was feeling some pain. I was in a ward with 4 others and we were all induced. The pain started to get worse and they sent my hubby home. By 1am I was in tears as the pains were REALLY bad and the night staff were so rude and unsympathetic. They hooked me onto the CTG to monitor my contractions but the contractions weren't recording so I think they thought I was faking the pains and told me to go to sleep. At 2am I was in bed turning from left to right when all of a suddenly I thought I had pee'd myself. Then I thought, oh my waters may have gone naturally. I was going to call the nurse but the night nurse was a HUGGGEEEE lady (I am not being rude or anything, I am huge myself) but I was scared if I told her I think my waters broke, she might shove her hands up me to check and I really didn't want to go through that torture so I didn't tell anyone!! Then I lay there worried so struggled to go to loo. On way there I saw a nice petite nurse and told her. She gave me sanitary towel and told me she'd come and check in 10 mins. She checked and said yep waters have broken and told me that was good news and that I should try to sleep (yea rright!).
Couldn't sleep at all. 5am called hubby and told him to get his butt into the hosp. He managed to stroll in at 9am - I was VERY annoyed with him. The pains were SOO bad at this stage but yet again the CTG wasn't recording any of this which was frustrating. Oh yes and I had been vomitting a lot all night which messed up my sugars.
At 10am (Thurs 19th) the Obs consultant came. I told her my waters broke last night (no one told her this). She then said she'd move me to labour ward to put me on sliding scale as I was vomitting etc.
I was moved there at 11:30. I was taken to the room with mum and hubby, sat on a chair. Felt weird so I stood up and psssssstttttttttttttttttt my waters fully broke. Had a lovely warm shower, didn't want to leave the shower room.
Went back to my suite, I was told to take pants off (felt awkward with mum AND hubby). MW checked cervix (wasn't too bad this time) and I was STILL 1cm. I was quite annoyed. They put that contraction drip on me as well as sliding scale at about 1pm. I really needed a wee but they wouldn't let me get up and said I needed to wee in the bed. The wee sensation went but then I needed to do a number 2 badly and begged them to let me go to the loo but they wouldn't allow it as I had to be on CTG ALL THE TIME!! There was no way I was going to poo in a bed and have someone else clean my bum!! MW said that it could be that really I didn't need to poo but the baby was pushing down. Oh yes. at this stage baby wasn't engaged yet.
With the contraction drip, the pains became unbarebale. I asked for epidural at about 3pm but they were doing c section so anethetist wasn't around to do it for me. They gave me gas and air. Took one puff and felt so sick. Because I dont smoke or drink alcohol they said first few puffs would make me nauseous. I tried my best on it but instead of making pains easier it made me feel worse so I gave up on that (instead my hubby took a few puffs!). The consultant came round at about 4pm and I was 4cms which was good news. She said baby wouldn't be out till midnight or even next day. I really couldn't take it anymore and was demanding a c section at this point. They said they'd only do c section if baby was distressed so I was actually wishing for baby to be distressed - that's how bad I was.
Finally at 4:30pm the anesthetist came. By this time the pain was so bad they had hard time getting the epidural inside as I kept moving. Still the pain wasn't being recorded so now they were worried as I was clearly in a lot of pain and no longer "faking it". At 5:30 they were STILL trying and were unsuccessful. They had to get someone else from trauma unit to try as they had messed up a couple of times and had one more chance so wanted a senior person to do it.
While we were waiting for him, all of a suddenly I needed to push. I kept pushing and pushing with every contraction. The MWs were telling me not to as I wasn't ready but I couldn't help it. I tried do my pelvic floors with every contraction to stop the urge to push but it didn't work!! They said pushing would tire baby and that I HAD to stop but I just couldn't.
Finally they managed to get epi inside at 6:20pm (yep it took that long). The anesthetist hung around to see if it worked as apparently it takes 10 mins to kick in. At 6:35pm I was still feeling contractions and still pushing. So he gave me an extra dose of something to stop that sensation. I wish he hadn't. Soon after, they called in someone to check me as baby's heartbeat was accelerating. She checked me. Guess what. I was 10cms and baby's head was nearly there!! But by this time coz the anesthetist had given me the extra top up thing, I had lost all urge to push. It was quite hard but eventually at 6:55pm my little bubba was born.
It was amazing. I will never forget that day. While I was suffering from contractions with no epidural and no gas and air I told hubby that a lot of women say they could do all this again and again but I would NEVER EVER be able to do it again and that I didn't want anymore kids. But now, I soo can do it all over again.
I thank God everything went well. Even his sugar level after birth was good (4.1). My sugar levels however were terrible. I hate sliding scale!! I worked SOOO hard for 9 months to have good control and then on D Day it all messed up!! My sugars wouldn't go below 16!! I told MW to take sliding scale off and that I could control it better!!
Anyway delivery went well but after birth there is one thing I couldn't do and to this date still can't do and every time I think about it I want to curl up and cry. It's breastfeeding. As he was a tiny bubba (5lb 7oz) he couldn't latch on so they fed him aptimal in a cup. I waited and waited for milk to come. I had expressed some colostrum on day 3. This was the Sunday he had jaundice. Then that night (when he was under light therapy) my breasts felt SOO heavy and painful. What I should have done is hand express but didn't as I was too sad seeing him naked and shivering. I think I lost my milk then. I had so many visitors I had no chance to hand express to get the flow established.
When I came home I bought a pump but I sit on it for hours and get an ounce. It's horrid. I feel like a failure
I googled and found there is this anti sickness tablet that helps establish milk so went ot GP but they wouldn't give it to me. I am on fenugreek herbal tablets and I THINK it's helping as when I squeeze nipple drops come out. He still won't latch on. Will try the pump now. Wish me luck ladies as I really want him to have my milk. I don't mind if he has it from bottle but as long as he gets a bit of the goodness.
Well that's my story. Sorry if it's long and boring!!
I know a couple of you want normal birth and worried about induction - I really hope it goes well for you guys. Maybe as it's your 2nd child, it might be eaiser!!
Awww!!
hehe! Had our gender scan on Saturday and we are having a girl
so happy and over the moon!!!
I wish my diabetic team would give me a pump but wont due to funding 
