Anyone else afraid to jinx themselves...

[sandyhen85]

So I'm 6w5d pregnant and I keep reading all the different sites for where I am in the pregnancy, but afraid to read ahead...when I had my ectopic back in March I told some people right away, read all the way ahead to maybe 5months pregnant, started putting a budget together of how much we would need and actually looked at things I wanted to buy, I then had the bad news that it was ectopic and felt like I had jinxed myself. So this time, I'm not reading ahead, not putting a budget together or looking at things that I want to buy...I have also only told my boss and a fellow manager at work due to stress levels, not even my mum and sister know. But i want to do all of the above, Anyone else feeling like this?

Oh btw I have had two early scans already, one was yesterday and we saw the HB which was amazing, but last year I had a mc at 8 or so weeks, so im still not as far along as I was then and I have pcos so I know I have higher risks...I just want to enjoy the pregnancy, but too afraid to

 

[Felix26]

I feel just like this ^^^ !!!!
I've also had 2 miscarriages, one missed. I'm so nervous of it all happenning again that I'm actually approaching this pregnancy as if its only for another month or so, I don't vision anything past that stage. Havent thought about buying baby things, or budgeting, or anything. Definatly havent thoought about may time when baby's due. I just don't feel that at the moment. Just a day at a time, I may not be pregnant tomorrow! I'm enjoying it a day at a time though, I am pregnant and thank God for that blessing. good luck with your pregnancy xx

 

[sandyhen85]

Hey Felix, thanks for the response. I'm sorry about your losses. How far gone are you now? Like me I notice you havent got anything in your signature either, again this is something I did early on last time, so waiting this time around. Will you be getting any early scans? Wishing you a H&H 9months, x

 

[Felix26]

Thanks, I'm about 6 weeks and no havent done a signature. I spoke to midwife today as I had bloods done at 4 and 5 weeks acording to last period, they were 134 and 1554 so seemed to be doubling well over the week, but the midwife I spoke to today believe I'm only 4 weeks today from blood results. (Not sure If she read them right) I can't be 4 weeks, I've known for 2 weeks already! So I'm abit disheartened today, hoping its not a sign of bad things to come. So from that I have a scan on 26th September, when I think I'll be 8 weeks and midwife thinks 6. Just hoping things go well that I get that far. Lost last baby at 8+4.
Whats your experience?xx

 

[Brieanna]

Me too! I have hardly even let thoughts enter my head, like "When the baby is here we will need to get ..." I have a daily calender so I only read what's happening that day. I haven't bought anything yet, have only told 3 people (not planned, they guessed because I wasn't drinking at an event), not even my mom!

Sometimes I almost feel like I am "neglecting" this baby because I try not to think about things in case something bad happens, which is silly because even if something bad does happen I will be upset with or without new baby clothes!

 

[sandyhen85]

Thanks, I'm about 6 weeks and no havent done a signature. I spoke to midwife today as I had bloods done at 4 and 5 weeks acording to last period, they were 134 and 1554 so seemed to be doubling well over the week, but the midwife I spoke to today believe I'm only 4 weeks today from blood results. (Not sure If she read them right) I can't be 4 weeks, I've known for 2 weeks already! So I'm abit disheartened today, hoping its not a sign of bad things to come. So from that I have a scan on 26th September, when I think I'll be 8 weeks and midwife thinks 6. Just hoping things go well that I get that far. Lost last baby at 8+4.
Whats your experience?xx

I would say that she has read your results wrong. At 13dpo so just under 4weeks my results were around the same..163. I am 7 weeks tomorrow, scan at 5w3d showed sac and yolk sac, then a scan at 6w4d showed HB but measured one day smaller, but that's a case of 1mm so not reading into that. My symptoms keep coming and going and I have a large cyst on my right ovary which is causing me pain so although my scan was just two days ago I have no idea what will happen at my next one on the 23rd. I really hope the next two weeks fly by for both of us, so we can see how babies are doing for the 8week scans. Do they have any ideas why you miscarried last time? Keep me updated x x

 

[sandyhen85]

Me too! I have hardly even let thoughts enter my head, like "When the baby is here we will need to get ..." I have a daily calender so I only read what's happening that day. I haven't bought anything yet, have only told 3 people (not planned, they guessed because I wasn't drinking at an event), not even my mom!

Sometimes I almost feel like I am "neglecting" this baby because I try not to think about things in case something bad happens, which is silly because even if something bad does happen I will be upset with or without new baby clothes!

I Brieanna, how far gone are you? I also haven't told my mum, I told her last time when I had an ectopic and she was so upset I wanted to wait this time. I keep talking to my belly telling my bean to stay strong and keep that heart beating, I have no idea if it can hear me but its the only thing that's keeping me sane at the moment, other than that I'm too afraid like you to think about anything. I was on a website looking at scan pictures for 6 weeks and some how ended up reading an article about budgets etc, half way through I realised what I was doing and closed it right now too afraid to continue to the end.

How is your OH reacting towards it?

Do you think the worry will end or will we spend our whole pregnancies worrying. I want to enjoy it you know? Xx

 

[Felix26]

Thanks, I'm about 6 weeks and no havent done a signature. I spoke to midwife today as I had bloods done at 4 and 5 weeks acording to last period, they were 134 and 1554 so seemed to be doubling well over the week, but the midwife I spoke to today believe I'm only 4 weeks today from blood results. (Not sure If she read them right) I can't be 4 weeks, I've known for 2 weeks already! So I'm abit disheartened today, hoping its not a sign of bad things to come. So from that I have a scan on 26th September, when I think I'll be 8 weeks and midwife thinks 6. Just hoping things go well that I get that far. Lost last baby at 8+4.
Whats your experience?xx

I would say that she has read your results wrong. At 13dpo so just under 4weeks my results were around the same..163. I am 7 weeks tomorrow, scan at 5w3d showed sac and yolk sac, then a scan at 6w4d showed HB but measured one day smaller, but that's a case of 1mm so not reading into that. My symptoms keep coming and going and I have a large cyst on my right ovary which is causing me pain so although my scan was just two days ago I have no idea what will happen at my next one on the 23rd. I really hope the next two weeks fly by for both of us, so we can see how babies are doing for the 8week scans. Do they have any ideas why you miscarried last time? Keep me updated x x

I hope it is an error on their part, but we'll see. I'm not prepared for another miscarriage,but I know they'll start testing if I have another and thats a comfort. I don't yet know why I miscarried. I'm now on asprin too, midwife recommended, to thin the blood and hopefully improve blood flow to the baby.
Congratulations on your scan, I'm really happy for you!! I hope it all stays well and that baby keeps sticky!!
I will keep you updated on my progress, you too!! Xx