I'm bored of:
1 waking up at 6.30 every morning to take my temperature
2 of sitting in telephone queues to get through to the fertility clinic to be passed around 5 different people before i get to the one that tells me the next available appointment in in 6 months time
3 of being on the NHS waiting (and waiting ..... and waiting ..... and waiting) list
4 of having the pursuade my DH to BD on what i think is the all important day
5 of having to think up new and imaginative ways each month to manage point 4
6 of having thought it was the all important OV day and then my body confusing me and deciding to gve me signs of OV but then actually OV a few days later (if at all) - so have to go back to point 4 (and see point 5!!)
7 of having a phone call with a friend who tells me they are thinking of TTC and shes going to go off the pill and just 'wait and see' - and then meeting up with them a few weeks later to be told they are pregnant.
8 of having to spend at least an hour a month buying baby clothes for somebody elses child (beacuse EVERYONE i know is pregnant / just had a baby right now)
9 of being told to relax (usually by the person in point 7)
10 of being told to stay positive
11 of being told that 'it isnt like me' to be this negative and weak
12 of having the same argument each month with DH becuase he has said point 9, 10 and 11
13 of beating myself up about the fact that I can not do point 9, that its is getting really hard to do point 10 and ashamed of myself that I am disappointing everyone by being point 11
14 of listening to my friends with kids telling me that i dont know how lucky i am - and that if i cant have children I am lucky as I will have more money, more time with DH blah blah blah... (and 14.1 - DH agreeing with them)
15 of family who know my situation asking me in the weekly phonecall 'have you had any tests results yet' 'whens your next appointment' - when they KNOW that it take 6 months for the NHS to do anything - they do not listen to me
16 writing down cycle days and symptoms in my diary - and then studying them for hours to try to find a pattern - including spending hours on fertility friend looking at charts
17 of starting spotting and STILL having some hope that this might be it and the blood may not come
18 of buying tampax / sanitary towels only at the last minute - just in case I dont need them this month - so usually end up getting caught short and having to make an emergency run to Boots.
19 of taking 7 different tablets each day (EPO, vit b6 and pregnacare)
20 of all the worry, the crying, the stressing - that comes with points 1 - 19.
R x x x x x
but the need for specific timing and the not knowing whats happening. We BD throughout the month rather than just around ovulation but Im never sure when i ovulate or when AF is gonna come so i feel like i wait all month for one thing or another. 
before the boredom kicks in again. 
came i had to log on to FF and put it on there just so i knew! 
