Anyone else feel this way?

Discussion in 'Long Term Trying To Conceive' started by Angel022605, Mar 8, 2020.

  1. Angel022605

    Angel022605 5K fun

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    Had a break down between yesterday and today. Found out last night my brother and his wife are expecting their first child after coming off BC back in the summer. While I am happy for them I’m also deeply depressed it’s not me and DH making that announcement. We have been TTC our first little one since 2015. Been to a fertility clinic and his sperm is so low our only chance according to the Dr is IVF($$). While we’re happy for my brother and his wife and congratulated them we still hurt. I’ve seen physical tears fall from his face as he cried out to the Higher Power “why”. I too cried physical tears of pain and heartache to the Higher Power “why”. DH is 36 and I’ll be 36 in July. We have lack of faith in the Higher Power. We feel like no one is listening. We feel it’s unfair that people can get pregnant while drinking or on drugs. We don’t under why people get pregnant to turn around and either sexually abuse children or physically abuse them or mentally and emotionally abuse them. Us trying for so many years only to have BFN every time hurts. It brings on depression really bad to the point he looses interest in general foreplay. There was one point one month he didn’t even want to just make out with me because he knew it’d leave to sex and he was too depressed for sex. I only wanted making out. This hurt me. I cried myself to sleep many nights. We’re deeply depressed. Hurting. Would love to chat with someone who has been in our shoes. Much hugs and encouragement needed. Thanks for listening.
     
  2. Angel022605

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    Any words of encouragement? Anyone ever experience this?
     
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    jsquared Well-Known Member

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    I get it. ❤️

    My story is a bit different—we are a two mom family and always knew we’d need help, but it took a LONG time and it was excruciating to watch other people (also using fertility treatments) conceive before we did. I am so sorry you’re going through this. It absolutely sucks and you are totally normal for feeling the way that you do. xo
     
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    Thank you for sharing
     
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    Anyone else have anything they wanna share? Good, bad, in-between? Any prayers or positive thoughts/vibes always welcome.
     

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