Hopefully I'm not intruding, I don't completely fall in the same category as you lovely ladies. I had an ectopic pregnancy in March, lost my little bub and my right tube. So, I'm not only petrified of another loss of a little one, but my only remaining tube. Right after my surgery, I was so eager to try again, but now that the time is really here, I'm scared. I want nothing more than at least ONE child, I won't get greedy as my odds aren't very good, but it's a rollercoaster
a lonely one at that. I keep hearing "oh, you'll get a very early scan, they'll catch another ectopic sooner", that doesn't put my mind at ease. It'll tell me a)my last and only tube is garbage and b)another loss
I sometimes wonder if this is karma, if I did something terrible in my lifetime that I'm being punished for in the biggest way possible, it's truly depressing.
BUT at the end of the day, I won't know what's gonna happen unless I try. It could go one way or could go the other ..
to both of you, I sympathize to no end