Firedancer41
Mom to 5 + 1 angel
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I lost my son Nov. 30, just 12 days after birth. His heartrate dropped while I was in labor (he was full-term) but no one knows why. The lack of oxygen caused him to be mostly brain dead--it was the most devastating moment of my life, to go through an entire pregnancy thinking nothing other than that a baby would be at the end of all of this.
Anyway, I still have a huge (probably greater) desire to have a baby, and my age concerns me, since I'm almost 37.
One of my main concerns is what others may think if I get pregnant again soon...like it's too soon. I think sometimes I worry too much--I thought people (like my parents) would think we were crazy for wanting #4, but everyone was quite happy for us.
I just finished my first AF since then, and although we were careful up to that point, I'm not sure if we're trying or not LOL I'm on CD 9 and we've
now a couple of times without using anything. I was going to wait until one more AF but frankly don't see if there is much difference or harm in trying right away. I feel very physically healed and emotionally I feel I can handle another, even though I will be on eggshells until I actually have a healthy baby in my arms.
Anyway, I still have a huge (probably greater) desire to have a baby, and my age concerns me, since I'm almost 37.
One of my main concerns is what others may think if I get pregnant again soon...like it's too soon. I think sometimes I worry too much--I thought people (like my parents) would think we were crazy for wanting #4, but everyone was quite happy for us.
I just finished my first AF since then, and although we were careful up to that point, I'm not sure if we're trying or not LOL I'm on CD 9 and we've
now a couple of times without using anything. I was going to wait until one more AF but frankly don't see if there is much difference or harm in trying right away. I feel very physically healed and emotionally I feel I can handle another, even though I will be on eggshells until I actually have a healthy baby in my arms.