Hello!
Well, I saw the other girls journals and it looks like a good way to get baby cravings off my chest. So here's my story...
I'm 21, a student midwife, and got married last summer to a wonderful man. Up until the wedding I kept saying I didn't want a baby for years....like when I'm 27/28 and have my training out of the way, and established my career.
After the wedding it's like a light switch flipped on in my head, and I just got broodier and broodier each month. After about 3 months I confessed to my husband that my feelings had changed, and that I was really feeling like I want to have a baby soon. I asked him what he thought about it...and he said that he's not ready. Maybe in a few years, once we have enough money, bigger place, once i've finished my training etc. He also said he wants to get to know me more and spend time with it being just the two of us. I totally understand his reasoning...but that hasn't stopped my head from coming up with different opinions.
1. We'll never have "enough" money. I don't plan on buying a million things for our children and we have so many relatives that have a lot of baby clothes. Plus, I'm an avid charity shop-shopper, and there are fantastic second hand bargians to be found, including clothing. Babies don't have to be expensive. I managed to get my husband to see this, I think.
2. We have a 1 bedroom flat with a small computer room. We could make it work, or move to somewhere with the same price rent, just a better layout. Either way...I don't want a bigger flat. I don't like big houses/flats, and we have enough room here for 1 kid.
3. My course....well, as it works out we get paid a years maternity pay if we fall pregnant while on the course. I guess it's an occupational hazard with all these pregnant women around, it's contagious! So the way I look at it is that if I have a baby while training I can have a year off, and come back into my training with the support of tutors and mentors, instead of coming back into being a fully qualified midwife with no one to help teach me skills I may have forgotten while away for a year.
Plus, if we have a baby while I'm training I'll get help with childcare when I return to the course.
My ideal plan would be to start trying this summer, which means that if I fell pregnant immediately, or if it took us a year, we would still have enough time left on my course to go on maternity leave and come back into training.
Sooooo, my husband sees my logic, but he's not ready. And him not being ready is something I can't force him to do. I want him to be excited about it, I want him to run out and buy me a pg test the first day I miss my period and wait anxiously for a positive line, I want him to see baby boots and imagine them on our baby, I want him to imagine me giving birth and holding his baby for the first time, and seeing our baby grow up calling him Daddy....but I guess I just have to wait until he sees what I see.
I'm just getting to the point where I want to have a cry every time I think of a baby
. I so want a big pregnant belly with a LIFE growing inside of it. I'll take the heartburn, the sleepless nights, the labour! I just want to be a mummy 
Anyone been in a similar situation?
Well, I saw the other girls journals and it looks like a good way to get baby cravings off my chest. So here's my story...
I'm 21, a student midwife, and got married last summer to a wonderful man. Up until the wedding I kept saying I didn't want a baby for years....like when I'm 27/28 and have my training out of the way, and established my career.
After the wedding it's like a light switch flipped on in my head, and I just got broodier and broodier each month. After about 3 months I confessed to my husband that my feelings had changed, and that I was really feeling like I want to have a baby soon. I asked him what he thought about it...and he said that he's not ready. Maybe in a few years, once we have enough money, bigger place, once i've finished my training etc. He also said he wants to get to know me more and spend time with it being just the two of us. I totally understand his reasoning...but that hasn't stopped my head from coming up with different opinions.
1. We'll never have "enough" money. I don't plan on buying a million things for our children and we have so many relatives that have a lot of baby clothes. Plus, I'm an avid charity shop-shopper, and there are fantastic second hand bargians to be found, including clothing. Babies don't have to be expensive. I managed to get my husband to see this, I think.
2. We have a 1 bedroom flat with a small computer room. We could make it work, or move to somewhere with the same price rent, just a better layout. Either way...I don't want a bigger flat. I don't like big houses/flats, and we have enough room here for 1 kid.
3. My course....well, as it works out we get paid a years maternity pay if we fall pregnant while on the course. I guess it's an occupational hazard with all these pregnant women around, it's contagious! So the way I look at it is that if I have a baby while training I can have a year off, and come back into my training with the support of tutors and mentors, instead of coming back into being a fully qualified midwife with no one to help teach me skills I may have forgotten while away for a year.
Plus, if we have a baby while I'm training I'll get help with childcare when I return to the course.
My ideal plan would be to start trying this summer, which means that if I fell pregnant immediately, or if it took us a year, we would still have enough time left on my course to go on maternity leave and come back into training.
Sooooo, my husband sees my logic, but he's not ready. And him not being ready is something I can't force him to do. I want him to be excited about it, I want him to run out and buy me a pg test the first day I miss my period and wait anxiously for a positive line, I want him to see baby boots and imagine them on our baby, I want him to imagine me giving birth and holding his baby for the first time, and seeing our baby grow up calling him Daddy....but I guess I just have to wait until he sees what I see.
I'm just getting to the point where I want to have a cry every time I think of a baby
. I so want a big pregnant belly with a LIFE growing inside of it. I'll take the heartburn, the sleepless nights, the labour! I just want to be a mummy Anyone been in a similar situation?
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maybe a year after that.
